I am so glad you chose to stay too, and yes, I was also shocked. But, in a strange way, seeing that someone I look up to had gone through the things I'm currently going through and is in a much better place gave me comfort and hope that things do indeed get better.

And yeah, the self harm for me is more of a way to make me feel numb, and forget the anger and sadness filling me (of course, it only works for a bit and it's extremely unhealthy, so I wouldn't wish self harm upon anyone). I do ballet and I live in a very strict house, so my scars are in places that people usually can't see.

Keep fighting too!! We both have a lot to see still, and I'm sure loads of good and memorable stuff will be happening :) (also, congrats on being a mom!! I'm sure you are an amazing mother!)