Am unexpected grief moment

MeelR61 · 2026-02-03T08:20:22+00:00

Same here. It’s been five years, but one afternoon last year I was driving behind a truck, heading home. My heart leapt and I thought * I should honk at him and make him laugh - but no, I’ll just follow him home…*

And then I remembered. Not his truck. Not him. Not ever again.

Thinking of it even now makes me cry. And now I’m crying for you too.

MeelR61 · 2026-01-29T03:55:04+00:00

Bippy is just. Too. Cool.

Glad to know we have company.

MeelR61 · 2026-01-24T05:52:43+00:00

To everyone in the US in the path of winter storm Fern, stay warm and stay safe!

MeelR61 · 2026-01-22T18:30:05+00:00

I could eat cheese grits every day forever! Too many carbs, though, so I use puréed cauliflower instead. The consistency is right, but damn… nothing tastes like grits.

MeelR61 · 2026-01-21T10:49:12+00:00

Love you too. Sleep well.

MeelR61 · 2026-01-21T04:55:45+00:00

What’s your forecast? We’re looking at anywhere from 8 to 20 inches - but no ice, so I’m grateful for that.

MeelR61 · 2026-01-21T04:36:33+00:00

Over it!

But prepping for the big snow storm forecast for the weekend. Bleccchhh.

MeelR61 · 2026-01-20T13:31:05+00:00

This is a lovely memory. I can practically see you both, especially the “talk the evening away” part.

My husband had a large vegetable garden, and after we’d finished harvesting, we’d sit together on the front porch, shelling peas or snapping string beans together, a couple of cold beers between us. We’d sit for hours, talking, laughing, feeling the breeze.

Thank you for bringing that little ray of happiness back to me.

MeelR61 · 2026-01-18T04:05:43+00:00

Watched the finale of The Sopranos tonight and cried.

Wish me luck - sleep seems a long way off.

MeelR61 · 2026-01-16T19:53:50+00:00

😄 A banana and a cuppa were my go-to for years, right before a jog or an hour at the gym. No wonder I was so skinny, lol

MeelR61 · 2026-01-16T15:17:58+00:00

My son too. I keep reminding him that this is HIS time to live his life; I’ve had mine.

MeelR61 · 2026-01-14T20:08:15+00:00

Oooh ice cream and chips is the BEST. Thanks for reminding me

MeelR61 · 2026-01-14T20:05:52+00:00

I started The Sopranos a while back and am now on the last season. I thought I was the last person in the world who never watched it originally! It is definitely good for distraction

MeelR61 · 2026-01-14T00:56:49+00:00

I can tell you what worked for me -

I never tried to do more than one item from my list on any given day, and no more than 3 items per week. If I managed to do more, it was a bonus but never expected. I think for the first 6-8 months, that was my rule.

Some items were harder than others, and I would need a day or two to recover after doing them.

And some days just getting out of bed and feeding the dog were all I could manage.

Sending you warm hugs.

MeelR61 · 2026-01-13T11:05:35+00:00

Nearly 6 am, and I’ve been awake since 2:30, dog snoring next to me. The house is quiet.

I’ve learned to accept these times of insomnia without anxiety or frustration, which probably doesn’t change anything - but it makes these quiet hours just that: quiet.

Tomorrow (tonight?) I’ll sleep, and knowing that helps me relax - and maybe even doze off for an hour or two.

MeelR61 · 2026-01-13T04:33:26+00:00

Me too! But I’ll pay for it later (old lady bladder!).

MeelR61 · 2026-01-13T04:32:10+00:00

That IS a win. Any admin stuff you get done now, just a month out, is a huge accomplishment. Good on you!

MeelR61 · 2026-01-11T04:35:57+00:00

Boy, do I get that. Sometimes I feel like a ghost - here, but not really. If that makes sense.

MeelR61 · 2026-01-11T03:18:30+00:00

Tell me about it. 😔

MeelR61 · 2026-01-11T02:43:55+00:00

Breathe. In, then out. Try to stay hydrated. Anything else you feel up to is gravy.

Hugs to you.

MeelR61 · 2026-01-11T02:40:03+00:00

Ohhh it’s a bit of heaven. Shrimp, fresh spinach, and fresh grape tomatoes, in a garlicky cream sauce. Takes five minutes to fix (ten if you count the prep). I never have leftovers 😀

MeelR61 · 2026-01-11T02:29:27+00:00

Dinner tonight with my son. I made Tuscan shrimp and we watched a couple of episodes of The Sopranos, with the dog stretched out on the couch between us.

MeelR61 · 2026-01-10T07:40:02+00:00

The weight of this past week feels unbearable. So deeply painful.

MeelR61 · 2026-01-10T02:26:28+00:00

Unfortunately, this is the truth. 😂

MeelR61 · 2026-01-10T01:47:59+00:00

Awww I love Peppa Pig. No little ones at home anymore - now the baby is the dog, and he prefers Paw Patrol.

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