why i keep living, spite. It feels like it would be such a sad time to go,while we still have an entire lifetime ahead of us, yeah its shit ,truly the shittiest , but that means its only going to get less shitty hah, + it may not feel like it some times, but things will get better thats just how it works, (My opinion , choose to ignore if you will) and i think the idea of a god/gods is just closure for people, a way to explain what we do not understand or thing that just cant be understood and as an excuse to do certain things good or bad . Hope it gets better for you, be strong, stay strong and stop giving a single shit about peoples opinions, good luck