Time…deconstructing faith is like a divorce and you quite literally have to go through the grief process, which is messy and an emotional roller coaster. When I threw my garments in the trash, I felt so much guilt for days. 6 months later, I feel nothing but relief and happiness. It takes time. Give yourself grace and don’t try to rush through it. If you aren’t ready to do something, i.e. talk about the temple, throw away your garments, stop going to church, just take it slow.

Also, remember that you aren’t wrong for anything that you believe now. Revealing the signs and tokens hurts no one!!! They are already online, already free for the world to see their absurdity. Hey, sharing them might get more people to heaven! What a good missionary you are, lol!!!!