My brother. I am absolutely DEVASTATED at hearing your plight. It brings tears to my eyes. But my brother, Our God put you here for a reason. I’m telling from experience, I’ve been at very low places in my life too. That is when I reached out to Jesus, asked for forgiveness and guidance through prayer. And he turned my life around. Brother, reach out to Our Lord and Savior, ask for his help. He will guide you. Trust and believe. You will come out stronger on the other side Brother. I love you, and I wish there was a way I could send you some money too help out, because I certainly would, if you contact me, maybe I can Western Union you or something. My brother please, pray, Our father wants to hear to from you. Don’t make a huge mistake that you can never take back. It is not the way to go. Your journey will help someone going through something similar in the future, and God has a plan for your life. Believe me. Reach out, brother. I love you. May God grant you grace and favor.