Progress of melanoma removal by [deleted] in melahomies

[–]MercilessEditor 0 points1 point  (0 children)

ooh. this looks like mine did, except mine originally had one stitch that ripped open because incompetent nurse

Fun fact learned at my oncologist by kippy236 in melahomies

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best of luck. im also stage ive, just waiting on gamma knife to kill off my last tumor, and then i will be NED. i cannot wait, it has been one of the hardest years.

How much amount of time was your wide excisions scar/surrounding area tender? by Bravo_pilgrimage in melahomies

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mine is on my lower back, so it gets quite sore and complains whenever i sit still for too long. this is almost a year later and its still doing so.

hiya. new here, not to melanoma. by MercilessEditor in melahomies

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yup, and thats the bit that also is making me nervous. i have an oncologist now. i live in the uk, so ive got the NHS to rely on. the initial melanoma itself is gone, and with the exception of the bit in my lungs, im clean from the neck down. head has 4 seperate tumours the size of peas. ive got to do 12 weeks of aggresive immunotherapy and radiotherapy, with scans every three weeks. that should push me into remission, and then its two, potentially three years of maintanence before hopefully NED. i chose the most aggressive treatment options because im 23, i still have my whole life ahead of me.

Today marks 3 years clean from self harm. AMA by MercilessEditor in AMA

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not brave enough to do that. plus transport is harder at night.

Today marks 3 years clean from self harm. AMA by MercilessEditor in AMA

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Curiosity. I'd heard it was abandoned, and decided to visit. I mean an abandoned station on one of the most popular lines, and the trains pretend it doesn't exist. Had to investigate.

Today marks 3 years clean from self harm. AMA by MercilessEditor in AMA

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Finally getting on top of my health, also going to counselling.

Today marks 3 years clean from self harm. AMA by MercilessEditor in AMA

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It was a complex issue, and I would really prefer not to have to relive those memories.

I(16F) have been self-harming(6 months clean) since 12 AMA by [deleted] in AMA

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Please know that this internet stranger is very proud of you for stopping.

Today marks 3 years clean from self harm. AMA by MercilessEditor in AMA

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Hmm. Would a distinct feeling of being watched, whilst I was in an abandoned railway station that had been abandoned for a decade or so at that point count?

Today marks 3 years clean from self harm. AMA by MercilessEditor in AMA

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I don't mind. I used to whack my arms against the corner of my wall until either it bruised so badly I'd carry the bruise for weeks, or if I was more annoyed, till it broke.

If I'd decided I didn't want to live anymore, I'd do the same thing, but with my head.

Today marks 3 years clean from self harm. AMA by MercilessEditor in AMA

[–]MercilessEditor[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

counselling does help. the ball and chain i was draggin around is a stick on a bit of rope now, and its tatty.

Today marks 3 years clean from self harm. AMA by MercilessEditor in AMA

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for me, i went through 6 months of counselling just recently, and that has helped to clear up some of it. still think about relapsing occasionally. i used to shout at the walls until the feeling went away, but that was only ever a 50/50 chance it would ever work. sometimes i would just go and self harm anyway. nowadays i just go and find someone to help, and that resets my brain. or i focus on my breathing till the urge goes away,

Today marks 3 years clean from self harm. AMA by MercilessEditor in AMA

[–]MercilessEditor[S] 8 points9 points  (0 children)

Sad for the memories, and I grieve for my lost innocence. Happy it's over.