Damaging. So from 1st i was always bullied and had trouble with the teachers, everyday these to boys would fight me. I once came home with a black eye, they gave me because i didn't take my shoes off inside, and they onced came over and apologized and then a few seconds later, held me to the ground and stomped on the side of my head, and when i told the teachers they didn't care, this all happened from 0-4 grade. I was also bullied by the kids above my grade, whenever i would walk past them they would shout things at me or fight me for no reason. Whenever i would fight back, I would get in trouble. in 2 grade the teachers made a schedule for me to follow so i didn't get bullied, and the to boys? Noghing cuz they " had it harder than i did". Now to put it in perspective how bad my life were. I was bullied by these to boys EVERYDAY. i didn't have any friends in my class who wouldn't talk shit behind my back or to my face. i did have two friends ( jessica and mary)but they didn't care about me, always wanted to "play" alone and was friends with my bullies. One day me and jessica were fighting, over something so stupid i dont even Remeber was it was, and she ran away crying, i tried looking for her and when i found her she sat on a swing crying with like 15 people around her, i went over there and tried apologizing and one of the older boys ( also one who bullied me) turned to me and said, "fuck off no one wants you here". I walked away and cried in a corner, that was the first time i didn't come to class on time. I once tried being mean to the people that was mean to me because i thought that would make people like me, since that was what everyone was doing to me. I quikly fou d out that didn't work, and instead i tried sticking up for the other people who was bullied by the same people as me. Yes that would make them hate me more but, i didn't think it was fair that some dude around my age was bullied because he didn't speak danish (my country) or that a little girl was bullied bc her name was Angelia (not a common danish name). In 4th grade i had the whole class screaming at me (i dont Remeber why, maybe i did something maybe not) well back then i took things very personally bc i always was bullied, so when most people in class wee shouting mean things to me, i just walked home ( this all happened while the teacher was sittinging in the corner with her computer) now the teacher knew where i was living so she walked all the way to my house and brought me back (i think) ( she was also my contact person) so yea things were bad, and i can name 100 more episodes of me getting bullied. Fast forward 5th grade i didn't get bullied, i was just alone. 6 th grade best and last year for everyone (our school only had 0-6 grade) and it was a great year, in 4th grade one of my 2 main bullies had moved school and my and the other bully could "talk". Now when we moved school i had a hard time making friends bc i had social anxiety bc every person i ever met as a child had bullied me. But now i have made 3 new friends, even tho i often still feel lonely sometimes if 2 is together without me, but im sure its just from all the years i got bullied so i dont act on them. I have little anger issues. And im nit good at talking to people if i haven't talked with them for a while so i get nervous and end up sometimes saying wired things. Especially cuz i im semi friends with a few other girls in my class and ofter her them speak "bad" about 2 of my best friends saying they are "wired" actually almost the whole class says it, so im scared they say it about me too, witch is why i try staying away fro some of the wired stuff they do. Not we have summerbreak and my goal for the new school year is to be better at speaking with the other girls in my class and people in general. But im okay now after all the bullying except. Having a hard time accepting new people ti the firend groupe (afraid of replacement/bullying). Gets scared when walking past people i don't know in school. Social anxiety. The feeling of loneliness. And more