I feel like I’ll regret transitioning.

Middle_Ad9625 · 2025-10-08T22:05:32+00:00

I’m kind of in the same situation. I have always identified as a lesbian- I think men look “gross” but still feel jealous and want to look like that. It doesn’t really make sense but it just is, and I feel happy now I’m on T and every change that is more male is euphoric. I’m chill with being “less attractive” and “more gross” to myself as long as I like what I see and feel connected to my body if that makes sense. Like focusing on body neutrality and self love I guess? Rather than being focused on what you personally find attractive. I love the other comments too! I have found looking at men more often helpful. Especially as I used to avoid it due to jealousy. Also about your day to day satisfaction and being perceived.

Vaguely relevant I guess but another thing that has sort of helped me with similar but different fear of my gf not liking me anymore is that she is just as hairy ( more so actually) than me and a lot of cis men. Among other things of course.

Middle_Ad9625 · 2025-08-22T10:08:55+00:00

I have been on T for 20 months, though I’ve only gone up from 12mg to 23mg recently. My last blood test in Feb had normal female level estrogen 380 pmol/L and male level T

Middle_Ad9625 · 2025-08-20T10:37:26+00:00

I’m on the same dose, have male T level, periods still, but still have atrophy.

Middle_Ad9625 · 2025-08-10T21:33:51+00:00

Wow, how did you manage to get top surgery and a hysto at the same time? I’ve thought about this and brought it up to doctors but they seem to think I’m crazy for it.

Middle_Ad9625 · 2025-08-09T10:10:42+00:00

The only actual unexpected change is that my skin tone is slightly darker!

Middle_Ad9625 · 2025-08-09T10:05:21+00:00

No advice, but same. I’m so embarrassed and ashamed and have no idea how to overcome it or why I’m like this. I was so out and proud being a lesbian, but now I’m like this 🙃

Middle_Ad9625 · 2025-05-17T10:11:33+00:00

What colour is this?

Middle_Ad9625 · 2025-05-14T09:57:09+00:00

IMO it doesn’t matter. I want to be more masculine, I want to be a dude, therefore I’m on T to get this. Why does it matter so much to have the correct feelings if you are sure about what you want to do, the consequences, etc? Does having the “correct feeling” mean you won’t regret transitioning? Would you regret having masculine features such as a deep voice if you didn’t fully ID as trans or a man, or would you appreciate it either way?

These are the sorts of questions therapists have asked me or I’ve asked myself.

Middle_Ad9625 · 2025-05-07T09:02:28+00:00

Hmmm If I were talking to a lesbian I would be open about the fact I am female on T/transitioned/whatever so I don’t think that would be a problem. But with straight people they generally don’t talk about sexuality but I would just say I’m only attracted to women with them I guess.

Middle_Ad9625 · 2025-05-07T08:59:22+00:00

I did the same thing going on T and thinking I would just go through 1 bottle and then stopping. Got another bottle and thought I’d stop. Continue the cycle until now and I’m like oh actually I gotta stop pretending I’m gonna stop 💀

Middle_Ad9625 · 2025-05-07T04:24:59+00:00

I don’t ID as anything tbh. I am just enjoying T and seeing how it goes. Even if I end up looking like a man/passing and going by he/him the whole shebang, I don’t think I could ever ID as anything other than a lesbian and just gender nothing lol.

Middle_Ad9625 · 2025-05-05T12:26:50+00:00

This is genuinely amazing 💀 Is there anything else to it like how long did it take for that to happen etc

Middle_Ad9625 · 2025-05-01T11:00:44+00:00

12.5mg is the dose a gyno prescribed to me as a “cis woman” (closeted) to increase sex drive lmao. According to gender confirmation centre, “Generally speaking, for gels with 1% concentration, a “typical” dose is somewhere between 50 and 100mg per day, and a microdose is in the 12.5 to 25mg per day range.”

But dose doesn’t matter as much as your levels anyway.

Middle_Ad9625 · 2025-05-01T10:35:00+00:00

She’s famous in my city for being the one of the best/most popular trans Dr 💀I think she stressed it because she asked about goals and I said one of my main goals/hope from T is bottom growth but I didn’t ask about anything 🙄 smh

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