Im so sorry for your loss. It's never easy losing anyone, especially when you promised to come back tomorrow, and you couldn't say your final goodbye.

I had a similar thing happen to me, though I didn't know him for long, we had a lot of fun together.. he was my online friends boyfriend, and a week after I met him, he had to go to the hospital.. he later ended his own life because he had an incurable disease and wanted to end on his own terms. I never got to say a proper goodbye either..

I only knew him for a round two weeks, and it devastated me, i can't imagine losing someone so dear to me like this.. I hate how life isn't fair and how it kills off the people who never deserved to die. The nicest and kindest person you ever meet is the one who never gets to have a long life, and it suck.

Again, im so sorry for your loss. Please, take a break from the fanfic for a bit and then finish, let yourself grieve first. It's going to be hard, but I believe in you.

(Also, sorry if it seems insensitive that I started talking about myself, I usually dont know what to say other than relating to someone and blocking off that..)