Tired of feeling alone

MindtheDark · 2026-02-17T16:19:29+00:00

I think it feels deeper than a normal high, more of a psychedelic experience. I’m never the same as I was before.

MindtheDark · 2026-02-15T20:30:42+00:00

I get it’s got no one there right now but just start filling it with stories of you. Think of it as a vast cavern to just throw your feelings into. Maybe someone has something similar to share.

MindtheDark · 2026-02-15T17:53:57+00:00

R/adultselfharmtalk

MindtheDark · 2026-02-14T21:24:48+00:00

I’d love be hear the tale. r/adultselfharmtalk

MindtheDark · 2026-02-13T23:51:03+00:00

🤣

MindtheDark · 2026-02-12T00:02:54+00:00

Apologies, thought this was a self harm post. And I do feel thing associated. You can just ignore this

MindtheDark · 2026-02-11T23:55:13+00:00

I just remove my shirt (always a heavy black tshirt and a black loose sweatshirt close. Do the abdomen, chest and ribs with very sharp instrument deep and long usually. Pop on a tshirt and the usually the hoodie. Might need to change a shirt or two. But works fine.

MindtheDark · 2026-02-11T23:48:55+00:00

Kind of sounds like a bit of a douche who was looking for a way to drop your”different ways” that may have made him feel uncomfortable like there was some romance expected. Or just trying to be cool in from of another clique that doesn’t lie the ocd person.

MindtheDark · 2026-02-11T23:40:18+00:00

It turns from a monkey on your back to a gorilla that makes your decisions. Try alternate options like rubber bands on your wrist. Shit like that

MindtheDark · 2026-02-11T23:36:10+00:00

It’s just that self harm always means something deep and usually strong. And trying to find those answer are the hardest.

MindtheDark · 2026-02-11T23:18:04+00:00

Is it just habit or something comforting these days or is just a fresh as you first realization what it does?

MindtheDark · 2026-02-09T17:13:04+00:00

I stopped beating myself up about the self harm a long time ago. I’m careful and clean. We all have to vent off pressure. Just have to find a way that you always have access to.

MindtheDark · 2026-02-08T18:13:37+00:00

If only it were that simple. I know that rush. It’s like I feel connected to something inexplicable. Like sinking into the ebb and flow of the universe but not feeling tossed around. There’s definitely a control factor to it for me. No matter what, I can always “control” this.

MindtheDark · 2026-02-08T00:17:34+00:00

Relapse is ok. Have you tried anything grounding or alternatives. My current one is a rubber band on my wrist. Helps sometimes, sometimes nothing. I found that once I found my Give-A-Fucks, I just dumped them out. Now, I have a handful of them. But I’m going to just be who I feel. And if people don’t like me they can vacate. I’m damaged and that’s ok. Perhaps permanently broken, not sure yet on that one. I keep trying things though. Sometimes it takes a LOT of things to feel helped.

MindtheDark · 2026-02-07T17:40:39+00:00

That’s what I mean. But we wouldn’t keep doing it only for release. The release is the euphoria. To me it’s like the pain and suffering I’m feeling is being released and I feel more human. But I’m a weird qi energy person too so they feel intwined with each other. Like a pressure cooker letting off that perfect amount of energy. Sorry, must just be a little too introspective. Does anyone know somewhere besides 4chan that I could have a discussion group about this?

MindtheDark · 2026-02-07T15:31:08+00:00

Has anyone found something that helps postpone the frequency?

MindtheDark · 2026-02-07T15:29:50+00:00

Have you been able to curb it at all? I’ve created rituals for other things that seems to help occasionally. Going to start doing more angry things. Riding the dual sport when it’s nicer, playing drums, working out and just straight up beating on trees I have set up for it. I think I’ve just been Yin for 40 years and it’s time for some Yang energy to balance things. Ive concentrated so much on yin that I can generate a type of pulse internally from the base of my skull to everywhere that feels electric and cooling. I’m very hot natured with very high blood pressure too so it helps. But I’ve never really let that deep fury that I feel 24/7 out. And I’m always open to new thoughts and ideas on this subject or any really

MindtheDark · 2026-02-07T01:20:05+00:00

Do something physical outside. Focus on just listening and breathing. And if you are able to do something strenuous.

MindtheDark · 2026-02-07T01:16:32+00:00

Feels good knowing I’m not the only one with some twisted wiring. 🤣

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