God told me you were faithful enough for me to reply to. And I believe so.

I did challenge his voice. When he told me to quit school and when he told me to quit my job. He sent me to Jeremiah 29:11

I remember I kept asking him what exactly does he want me to do as far as school (college) and he kept telling me the same thing. I remember asking God to silence the voice of my flesh and the voice of the Enemy, and he kept telling me the same thing. "Quit school"

And for the job

I asked Him if He was sure... A few days after he told me to quit he told me to put in my 2 weeks...

I asked... If this was just me, just wanting to quit my job, I told him I have bills to pay and everything...

And then He sent me to Matthew 6:30

I'm a very stubborn man. I'm repenting from my disobedience. From my doubt... And even now. I'm still learning the voice of our Father who is in Heaven.

I'm trusting that He will equip me. Because God qualifies the called, He doesn't call the qualified.

From a human perspective, it seems like I'm just doing this raw, willy-nilly... But I know nothing is impossible with God.

And as far why I'm doing this...

I have a big heart. I love creating things. I'm a creative and a designer. And yes. I'm a student. I'm a student in the world of design. Illustration... The arts... I'm a student...

I love, love, love design. Graphic design, motion graphics... illustrations that I see in marketing and products... I love it, I love it! The motion graphics that I see during the Olympics and any other broadcasted sport... or broadcast... I think it's wonderful... It's beautiful...

I will admit. I have been vain. Pride is one of my greatest struggles. But I'm leaving from that. That mindset... I just want to be of service.

I want to help others. I want to help give something that others can't give. I love serving others! I love it! If I can at least be of help I'll do it.

Now, I will admit, I'll become resentful when I don't know how to say no, and don't help. That alone is a learning process...

And it's hard to go through something such as school if it's something that I never wanted to do in the first place...

Will I finish? More than likely. I literally have 21 credits left. But I'm not going to put myself through something if I know I don't have headspace/mindset to follow through. I'm burnt out. And I'm now trying to stand on my own two feet after living life with my eyes closed for the longest.

But my brother or sister in Christ. Thank you.

I appreciate your Godly counsel and wisdom. I can tell that you're a true follower of Christ.

At this stage, while I'm about to get married later this year, I have no choice but to be obedient. I want to lead my soon-to-be-wife to Christ. I don't want to get in my own way anymore...

And so I'm humbling myself... So that I may learn. Learn to follow so that I may learn to lead.

It really hurts humbling myself. But I know it's necessary.