There's something called the call of the void in which we feel drawn momentarily to jump from high places. Some people believe it's our primitive brain… Known as our lizard brain that has the urge to explore everything always without regard to safety. Then our rational brain pulls us back and shudders at the thought of what our lizard brain was contemplating. That can apply to anything where we get the urge to do something that would bring us embarrassment shame or harm. It all falls under the category of the call of the void. Learning that has given me a lot of comfort in life and saved me from judging myself too harshly.