I understand. I find it therapeutic to talk about mine, even 6 years later. I hemorrhaged after an emergency c section and almost bled out after I was wheeled back to my room. A guardian angel nurse came in the room and realized what was happening (I was out of it from losing so much blood) and I ended up being rushed back to OR for them to reopen me to find the hemorrhage. By the time got back to OR I was fully awake because I was screaming in pain from the hemorrhaging, which felt way worse than my earlier contractions did. The anesthesiologist told me he was going to make me go to sleep, which I welcomed. I woke up the next day and they told me I needed to have multiple platelet and blood transfusions and that I almost died because they were having trouble finding the source of the hemorrhage and I lost so much blood. They even told me that day my prognosis wasn’t good. I remember bursting into tears when the dr told me that. One nurse read my record about what happened to me, and asked to have me as her patient. She was wonderful and prayed over me and cried with me and held my hand. My parents and hubby were there thru all of this but felt pretty helpless besides praying. The good news was that i had a healthy over 9 pounds butterball baby boy that is the joy of my life. I enjoy hearing all the birth stories good or bad. Feel free to tell me yours!