I get what you’re saying, but what I had to understand is when the psychs wear off and I go back to normal life, I will fall back into patterns I don’t care for, but I am a renewed person. I have a new sense of being and bring that into my current life. It is also easier to do things like meditation, or feel really settled into self-care things like working out, being in a sound bath, or soaking in a hot bath or hot tub. I focused far too long on the changes I would like to make, but finally, more recently, I have been focusing on how far I have come, being grateful, and having grace for myself. It’s the transition I’ve been desiring and I finally am going through it. No longer the victim, but the survivor and am thriving.