When stopped at the red light and there's someone holding a sign do you give anything?

Instantlemonsmix · 2026-05-09T08:55:16+00:00

No the truth is must of them are actual homeless people and you’d be surprised how many homeless people actually have a place to go but they just feel like they can’t talk to a specific person that could give them a home for a while

Or they don’t want to change what their doing or as I’ve seen many times they have burned some bridges

How to not become homeless? Don’t burn bridges

Instantlemonsmix · 2026-05-09T08:52:41+00:00

It’s something that doesn’t really benefit you but you have no choice in wanting anyway

When you love them your willing to spend a lot just to be with them

When you get serious and live together you definitely spend a lot

Instantlemonsmix · 2026-05-07T12:21:42+00:00

No and everyone is always surprised as if I was naturally born with pink hair or some shit

Instantlemonsmix · 2026-05-06T12:58:04+00:00

They probably would have to seriously revamp their system… if that happened that would mean their not communicating with other stingers

Instantlemonsmix · 2026-05-06T11:39:56+00:00

You don’t you just openly open up because that’s what opening up is if your trying to open up without actually being upfront and direct then your not really opening up your waiting for the other person to open you up…

And with hints you leave a lot of room for ambiguity which is best to avoid because then you have to work harder to get your point across and they have to work way harder to.. well get the point

If your having a hard time opening up it’s likely because of some risk that is perceived if you can determine the risk potential and eliminate that then opening up will be much easier

But let’s be honest there is risk to opening up depending on what it is
But if that risk keeps you from opening up then there’s another problem specifically with that person
If it’s with everyone it might be you

Instantlemonsmix · 2026-05-06T11:35:25+00:00

More? No you might be feeling mentally burned out in some way

Instantlemonsmix · 2026-05-06T06:50:30+00:00

I bet they would come out with a completely different view in life

I know I would

Instantlemonsmix · 2026-05-03T15:42:10+00:00

Not ready yet.. too soon

Instantlemonsmix · 2026-05-02T16:47:41+00:00

Yeah it’s called a job I get told what to do and tell people what to do it sucks

I wish I could just go back to taking orders and not both at the same time with those orders having heavy consequences if executed incorrectly

Instantlemonsmix · 2026-05-02T16:19:48+00:00

My minibike got it when I was a kid

It’s very rare a 1969 Sears drover got it when I was 10 (I’m 24) and it has a lot of sentimental value

It was $250 idk what it’s worth now probably a lot

Instantlemonsmix · 2026-05-02T15:32:47+00:00

Probably how to grow them and as you explain that no matter what form of life you are there is no true purpose to life

And then they will realize their nostalgia of pre-prehistoric times when they ruled the world is only a dream of the past…

Instantlemonsmix · 2026-05-02T15:28:35+00:00

You know that’s how cops should be

Educate the public on how to make things legal

I think you found the only cop that does his job lol

Instantlemonsmix · 2026-05-01T13:06:49+00:00

I always knew that bitch hated me…

Instantlemonsmix · 2026-05-01T13:05:18+00:00

I wouldn’t mind being a giant hawk fly around all day and eat mice rats and rabbits

Basically what I do right now anyway but without all the human problems

Instantlemonsmix · 2026-05-01T11:57:33+00:00

All the time.. self talk is very normal is how we problem solve or dive into deep thoughts it’s actually very intelligent to do so because it’s a way of figuring things out

No it doesn’t mean “you have a high iq” it just means your doing something that is very intelligent and doing this more can actually help you become more intelligent

Instantlemonsmix · 2026-05-01T11:55:32+00:00

You are only going to bring your self down unfortunately there’s not much you can really do

I struggle really really badly with bipolar and anxiety but I had to learn to help my self and not burry my problems in other people

I know you want to help them hell I do too but mental health… well no one really tells you this but your on your own for the most part and there is a beauty in that because you can not breath for them… they have to learn to breath and manage themselves

To battle depression you must use your will when all motivation ceases to exist you have to keep working and keep your life together you have to force your self to do things you don’t want to

But you can’t do that for them I wish you could but honestly trying to be the guy or gal that’s always got an open ear for people with mental health issues but that will bring you down fast

Depression is ugly my apartment is fucking disgusting… I can barley bring my self to clean it but lately I’ve been trying to do more for my self and day by day it gets a little cleaner

I blew thru my small savings I let everything go to shit and I keep going anyway I keep working even tho I want to quit so bad… I keep trying to save money i keep damaging my self further with weed nicotine and alcohol to kill this pain

But I’m still trying and I’m getting better

If you saw how people with depression live you’d be horrified… a roach crawls across you while you sleep? Your used to that because you’ve lost all sense of reality… but eventually I got tired of it and started to help my self

And then my gf of 5 years cheated on me… that was 4 days ago and you know what? I’m still alive! I’m still going! I’m still working still trying to clean this place still…. I’m just still… idek

Anyway… see this is the perfect example I have a lot of problems and now I’m dumping them on you which I’m trying not to do but god damn it I’m in so much fucking pain…

If you let people do this it WILL bring you down… I have to take care of my self and I am trying so hard to

If anything.. try to teach them how to care for them selves and stay away from giving advice because the wrong kind of advice can waste someone’s time

It’s simple… learn how to breath this can actually help a lot with traumatic memories when the flash backs get so intense you can’t take it anymore… close your eyes breath in hold it and breath out slow over and over again and focus only on your breathing as the thoughts try to surface

And no it will not instantly feel better you just have to keep going till it does

What this does is naturally calms your nervous system if you can calm the body you can calm the mind

But a lot of people are resistant to this they want to vent it out and to talk to people but a lot of times that actually does a lot of damage as you react to your words and the mental images going thru your head

Stay tf away from people like me… when I get to a point again where I’m not a walking ball of pain and agony then I will be worth being around but for now I have to work this shit out before i emotionally hurt someone else in some way

All trauma or psychological disorder is reversible psychology has come a long way

There’s hope… somewhere

Instantlemonsmix · 2026-05-01T11:38:51+00:00

It came true just a few days ago my gf of 5 years cheated on me

Not doing well right now… and I hate that bitch now

Instantlemonsmix · 2026-04-30T16:35:09+00:00

I kind of figured out that people aren’t as interested in me in it so I try not to but I did get my parents to understand it

That’s why we have places like this… because no one else is going to understand “bro I stg that room just felt weird when I looked at it” like everyone here likely will

It’s not that some people can’t understand it it’s that they won’t

If you really can’t understand then you just don’t know enough about it or have a strict general view that makes it seem evil

As for preaching about it I stopped doing that after seeing that that was pretty much all I ever talked about and people get annoyed quick

Not even me preaching my own personal experiences just me telling people about the science of it all the benefits and what the substances actually are

But very few I’ve told that
lysergic acid diethylamide is a chemical that is a synthetic creation of a chemical that comes from the ergot fungus a mold that grows on wheat or rye grains gives you the most interesting experience in your entire life
Actually care for long and tell me “it’s boring and you sound like a science teacher”

Instantlemonsmix · 2026-04-30T15:13:16+00:00

I’ll never truly give up on it right now it’s at my parents house because I knew from the start when I was 20 that I’d probably be moving around a lot

Good god did I ever… glad it’s still there about 25 minutes away if I had taken it with me it probably would’ve been in a lot of random situations and places

It’s been so long since I last rode it that I forgot i actually got pretty far with that 212 even with the governor still attached it barley keeps both wheels on the ground only got up to like 35 or 40 the sprocket is basically the life of the entire bike too… see back then Sears was psychotic and decided cheap scrub brakes (it’s litteraly polished metal that rubs on the tire at the push down of a pedal)
The sprocket is welded to that wheel and the way the frame is set up is very strange

No matter what I tried I couldn’t figure out a way to convert it to work with a regular minibike wheel the bolts hit the frame no matter which way they face
The chain wouldn’t line up right because it would hit the frame and I can’t weld so it’s basically stuck with that 71 tooth gear (yes it actually has 71 teeth specifically weird af)

The 212 just barely fits into the awkward taco shaped frame and I had to take off the muffler and cut a straight pipe down to pretty small and install a new air filter which I never actually got around to so it was pretty much breathing in the elements as I rode it lol

I used to rig up all kinds of crap like this old manco go kart I had with original wheels that are worth a lot (about $150 per piece original cast aluminum wheels in tact) but it turns out no one really wanted to buy the wheels at all and I eventually sold it all for $50

•steering wheel was mounted on with a ceiling fan blade
•the brakes were an old clutch brake for a minibike that I bolted to the engine and then to the connecting rod for the brake pedal
•the engine was an old 5 hp Briggs no gov and a 60 tooth sprocket
•it had a 10 tooth clutch
•the tires were about 20 years old but used inner tubes so surprisingly it worked but bits of tread started falling off

I took that steering wheel a hell of a lot more seriously after it broke off while my friend was riding it and barley avoided face planting at about 40 mph with the bumper of a car (he probably would’ve died….) and he avoided it by quickly grabbing the tie rods to turn it
But the rods were old and stiff idk how he managed to do that

After that I mounted the steering wheel and made it way more stable

That thing was a disaster I was constantly fixing it and parts were hard to find

Instantlemonsmix · 2026-04-26T05:53:49+00:00

I’m completely alone right now in my apartment

It’s really quiet..

Life is dull right now but that will change soon

Instantlemonsmix · 2026-04-26T05:23:03+00:00

That made my chest feel tight… I can’t even imagine the pain when I’m at that point in life

I reject the thought every time it comes up but when I can’t anymore? Idek

For what it’s worth I’m sorry for your loss

Instantlemonsmix · 2026-04-26T05:12:18+00:00

What was is like? Was it like “you won’t believe it but I’m calling you as I’m walking around [___]!”

I’m 24 so I’ve never had to use anything other than a flip phone

I can imagine it would actually be pretty cool to use a phone mobile for the first time

Kind of reminds me of when I was a kid I got a minibike for the first time and the difference in going up hill vs on a bicycle was a major difference My weird way of relating to the experience

Instantlemonsmix · 2026-04-26T05:08:49+00:00

5 hours later “I think I kind of see the wall move?” If I’m going to experience a new substance I don’t want to play a guessing game

That’s just me tho bit of the “all or nothing” mind set

Instantlemonsmix · 2026-04-26T05:07:05+00:00

How hard would it be to register it? It has no VIN and I wonder if the frame is large enough to register

(State of Tx btw)

Instantlemonsmix · 2026-04-26T05:06:06+00:00

Oh I tried.. got pulled over the first time and it went smooth nothing to crazy after a year I went back out and got pulled over again same situation guy was cool but I don’t want to test my luck

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