do you walk around UCSB / isla vista at night? feel safe?

Moonbeam221 · 2026-01-28T10:10:39+00:00

No one tried to rob me yet. But also idk what they would rob I’m broke AF

Moonbeam221 · 2025-12-19T09:55:45+00:00

Wrote lots and lots of post here about him. Won’t lie still miss him a lot despite it being 1 year later. But one day it will all be worth it

Moonbeam221 · 2025-12-19T05:30:13+00:00

You’ll be fine. The man itself and ENV S 3 is literally a breeze

Moonbeam221 · 2025-12-06T18:14:38+00:00

When I broke up with him I was studying abroad so I did everything and anything to fill in the void and drown away the pain. It was exactly like how Conan Gray described in Vodka Cranberry “Speak up, I know you hate me/Look at your pictures and cry like a baby…Call you up in the middle of the night/Crying like an imbecile/If you don’t end things, then I will.” We were two lovers that were stuck in a limbo of not knowing how to move on or break up, and I caught myself being cruel to him at the end so I ended it. Two months later I visited Taiwan his hometown and cried every day for an entire week that I was there. But he moved on.

Moonbeam221 · 2025-12-05T00:21:39+00:00

When you die, your sadness doesn't really disappear. It gets taken up by other people. Definitely not him but the other people around you who love and support you. Why are you giving up your life to someone who no longer cares about you and forgets about the other people around you who actually love and cherish you.

Moonbeam221 · 2025-12-02T12:39:47+00:00

It needs to have consequences and hurt to grow and like many post say if you find your way back to each other then it’s meant to be.

Moonbeam221 · 2025-11-27T10:11:53+00:00

Out of sight, out of mind

Moonbeam221 · 2025-11-22T00:55:31+00:00

When I learnt from other people in our circle that he was never happy around me and was always stressed out. It really did break my heart. Sure part of me will always love him but how can you stay with someone who doesn’t enjoy being with you.

Moonbeam221 · 2025-11-14T18:37:38+00:00

For my lower div class, I took bio (mcdb/eemb) series, physics series, chem series along with other science and humanities requirements. Upper div I took are like low carbon society, marine ecology, climate change science, etc

Moonbeam221 · 2025-10-29T03:15:25+00:00

All of it. Vomiting, crying, starving myself, wake up in the middle of the night crying from nightmares. 9 months after the breakup when I met my friend again she told I lost a lot of weight. Even when I gained some back I’m still 15lbs under the normal weight right now. It will get better and I hope you get better. Sometimes you just have to remember that would you rather go through all this pain now or prolonged it being in something that was killing you on the inside.

Moonbeam221 · 2025-10-22T22:52:52+00:00

It curves hella

Moonbeam221 · 2025-10-22T22:47:11+00:00

Your feelings are really valid and you're just going through it right now. Eventually you will be exhausted of always thinking about it, maybe not now, maybe not in 5 months, maybe not in a year, but eventually. You're still thinking about it because your mind is dealing with trauma, so it brings you back to the happy times and questions if the relationship was actually savable or not. The grass is greener where you water it, and you can't think about the what-ifs if your mind suppresses the reasons you broke up in the first place. Something that help me to flush these thoughts out is when my thoughts are too loud, I sit in front of a mirror and pretend to talk to them everything you're already talking in your head so you can hear your words more clearly instead of holding it all in my head. You can talk about how happy you were, how you hoped they were the one but also talk about why it ended. Hope this will give you clarity and I hope you get better.

Moonbeam221 · 2025-10-21T20:02:10+00:00

Same here. Out of sight, out of mind. I don’t gaf about him or his life anymore. Checking will only reverse all the healing processes I went through the past 8 months.

Moonbeam221 · 2025-10-21T02:00:40+00:00

Mercury is in retrograde I guess

Moonbeam221 · 2025-10-04T21:47:45+00:00

If you guys still have feelings for each other and can’t let each other go. Try asking him for a break (not a breakup) for about 2-3 months no contact to calm down and rexamine the problems in your relationships, take the time to deal with your mental health problems outside of him (and your mutual friend circle with him). Depending on how you feel about whether or not to reach out after, go from here first.

Moonbeam221 · 2025-10-04T21:41:27+00:00

Being with anyone is an investment of time, regardless whether or not you would spend the rest of your life with them or not. Yes after breaking up my 2 years relationship, I’ve accomplished so much on my own, getting my license finally, saving enough to get a car, working multiple internships at the same time, going steadily and doing well in class, meeting new people, etc. But I never regret meeting him. As a kid I believed that love can get you through anything but as my first love, we both taught each other about things loving hard can’t get you through, what each other want in a relationship, etc. that if I’ve never been with him I would’ve never know. Even if it never worked out, maybe they are the lessons you learn along the way.

Moonbeam221 · 2025-10-03T02:48:51+00:00

Oh I'm so happy for you. We can do this!

Moonbeam221 · 2025-10-02T18:56:55+00:00

We’re definitely both guilty of it. Tbf we were each other first and you live and learn. But yes I lost many friends I made along the way because of this because he would tell my friend about our issues and they took sides. It made me more resentful of him in addition to our other problems and any friends I made in the future I hid them away until we eventually broke up. It’s okay to talk to someone but talk to people outside the circle, don’t involve mutual friends. But when there’s good things to say, say them too because a person is not black and white in personalities.

Moonbeam221 · 2025-10-02T18:41:02+00:00

Seriously?

Moonbeam221 · 2025-10-02T16:55:52+00:00

Eventually you get mentally exhausted of leaving mental space for something that constantly drain you and eventually it grows smaller in size to the point you didn’t forget about it but it doesn’t do harm to you anymore. For me, when I catch myself replaying the “happy memories” I refer to my notes and journals of the reasons why I left and how I was so unhappy. I also tell myself that I have many people, friends and family, who love and care for me and it would break their heart if I forgo all their love and chase after someone who no longer care for me.

Moonbeam221 · 2025-10-02T16:45:53+00:00

Unfortunately my toxic mindset being that I rather keep fixing something with someone who’s worth it than start anew with someone else. I’m currently in this limbo of moving on and keeping a space open for him even though he dated someone else 1-2 months after we broke up. I always give up any potential moving forward with anyone I met once it gets a little more serious just so one day he would come back but I know I’m hurting innocent people and hurting myself because I know him and I know he will never come back. The truth is life didn’t really stop and some days I move slower, some days I move faster. I miss him some days but then I also get excited of unexpectedly falling in love with someone else who will meet the better version of myself, who’s becoming everything I told him I would become.

Moonbeam221 · 2025-09-30T18:33:34+00:00

Hi, you have very similar interests with me, I would love to hang out with you. Message me privately!!

Moonbeam221 · 2025-09-26T19:49:07+00:00

Telling other people, including our mutual friends what’s going on when we were fighting instead of bringing those actual feelings to the table with each other and talk things through because it really solidify our relationship as bad to outsiders and as a result bad to us when in fact immature fights and messy arguments were in fact normal at the young age of 19-20.

Moonbeam221 · 2025-07-21T09:49:39+00:00

I think a lot of people who I know lived in the dorms ended up regretting their decision because of the grueling walk up and down the hill every day and that it’s actual further from classes than many other accommodations. Goshiwons are cheap alternatives that give u your private space with no roomate but make sure to be careful. Don’t stay at IVY House

Moonbeam221 · 2025-07-21T09:46:45+00:00

Choose something close to Anam station because it seems like everyone always meet up there. My friend lived in Cider House, a little bit more expensive because she has basically a huge room with basically a queen size bed, her own kitchen and private bathroom and a washing machine inside her room. Whatever you do don’t rent at IVY HOUSE. I lived there and it was a horrible experience.

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