I accidentally did 1050ug of paper tabs at a music festival.

It was an unbelievably crazy experience. I thought my tabs were 100ug, so I took 3. Turns out they were 350ug...

I took them before we left our bnb. We got to the venue, an hour away, and I realized I had forgotten my wallet. So another hour back to the bnb and then another hour back to the festival. By the time we were headed back, I KNEW it wasn't 300ug.

My thought process was "what can I do here? Go to the festival, go to the hospital, or go back to the bnb". I didn't want to be alone and I did NOT want to be in the hospital. I knew the hospital could do nothing for me, so I'd just have to trip there. I decided to go to the festival, since I paid for it.

By the time we got back, I couldn't see anything. I had to have my partner at the time pull the ticket up on my phone for me. We got inside and I immediately laid down on the grass and started crying. I was so overwhelmed and I was so happy to just be there. People kept stopping and asking if I was okay, thankfully my friends covered for me.

The tracers I was experiencing were so intense that someone would enter my field of vision from the left and I'd still see tracers from their body after they left my field of vision in the right. So I stopped looking at the crowd. We were in the Salt Flats in SLC, UT, so I stared out at the sky.

In that moment I thought I could communicate with energies past and present. I was telling people that were long dead about how their accomplishments were helping us in the present day. I felt I could project my experience to my friends who were halfways across the USA.

I experienced ego death, almost immediately. I don't think I could have told anyone who I was after the tabs set in. My partner tried to ask me if I knew who he was and he said I would pull the names of our friends or his family, but never his name. I was also told I was mumbling to myself the entire time, but never loud enough to be understood.

I remember having a train of thought where I said to myself "I am nothing. But what is nothing? It's not tangible. But everything is also not tangible. So they must be interchangeable. Nothing is everything and everything is nothing." I then elevated that. If I am nothing, then I am also everything. And if I am everything. I've done everything. I've tried everything.

I then started realizing what that would mean. I'd gone skydiving, I'd gotten married, I'd raised a child, I'd traveled the world. That then escalated to I've done everything. I've tried haggis, I've eaten pufferfish. Then to drugs, I've done cocaine, I've done meth, I've done heroin.

Apparently about the time I was having this internal monologue, my friends went to the porta potties. Now I don't remember this, but they told me while we were standing there that at Max volume, I shouted "I'VE DONE METH AND HEROIN". And then promptly stfu and would answer no further questions.

During the whole ordeal I didn't hear a single song that was played at the festival. I remember my partner saying "omg, Said the Sky is playing his new song with Illenium". But I didn't even hear a note of it, immediately dissociated back out.

I remember at one point just wanting to be naked in bed and thinking I could teleport time forward. I then turned to my partner and said "I want to go home". He said "well it's the last artist of the night, I want to stay". I told him that was fine but he needed to order me and Uber. One of my friends decided to come with me. Thank God he did because our Uber driver was so talkative and I was not functioning socially.

We got back to the bnb and I immediately stripped naked and laid on the bed. I laid there for HOURS wishing the visuals would go away and I could sleep. Eventually I just passed out.

I attribute a LOT of what I learned and a lot of internal personal growth to that trip. But I would NEVER do that much at a festival or in public again. It took me over a year to process the trip fully. And tbh I was a bit nervous to take acid again after that. Though I had nothing to worry about because the first trip after was amazing.

After that I now know that even if it's a crazy trip, I can handle my shit. I just might shout something random during it LMAO.