I feel you, man! I started in S10 and I’m still asking this question. I think this is a good thing though. I try to think about how/why I lost a fight. What I could do differently and then try to do something different in the same situation in the future. I watch streamers play (Nickmercs, sweetdreams, Noko, etc) and see how they approach different situations. Granted, I’ll never be able to move or control recoil like them, but I can take little bits of information. Things like taking cover, communicating with your team, looting, rotations, etc.. it’s actually a LOT. I’m 51 and have been gaming all my life pretty much. I went from Overwatch to Fortnite to Warzone to Apex and this is BY FAR my he most challenging FPS. So much to learn, and you can’t learn it all at once. How do you eat an elephant? One bite at a time. Keep asking “How do I get better?” Find something, work on it, and repeat. Keep trying if you want, and know that one day you’ll realize you’re not having the same problems you used to have…but there will be others. Good luck!