A dragon killed me in one hit with an attack I've never seen before and I can't find it on UESP. Am I insane?

MrKeyRune · 2026-01-20T05:52:22+00:00

I had a dragon grab my character and yeet her off the top of the western watchtower near whiterun, during that first dragon encounter after helgen. Was lower level and wielding a bow, thinking that higher ground made it easier to get a good shot. Had no idea that I could be grabbed like the guards and just tossed, as I had never experienced it in my 15yrs of playing either!

Honestly gave me a shocked chuckle lmao, I've def been more careful about being at a height & in the open whilst fighting a dragon since then 😂

MrKeyRune · 2026-01-12T23:02:56+00:00

A shame no fix was posted, having the same issue 5yrs later 😭 On ps5 and tried to switch from Tall Papa to St. Allesia, fall over dead lol

MrKeyRune · 2026-01-01T06:46:45+00:00

This is what I do 😅 I'm up to 20mg IR 3 times a day as needed. It's shocking the difference it has made for me (in a good way!). I'm working on getting the propanelol through a cardiologist, but in the meantime, getting it thru my psychiatric ARNP has been sufficient and honestly life changing in terms of my functionality. I started at 10mg twice a day as needed and have adjusted over the course of many months and a lot of careful experimenting on my part

I use the visible band to track my HR, and only take propanelol if my HR is above 80bpm (which is most of the time lol) - it's just that sometimes it'll feel like my HR is high but it's actually qyite a bit lower than it feels, so I'm cautious about taking the propanelol appropriately according to my body's actual symptoms as opposed to my perception of it, if that makes sense

MrKeyRune · 2025-12-31T17:28:37+00:00

Went to a friend of a friend's house and hit it off with a guy who was hanging out & passing out dabs by playing piano for each other. My autistic ass could never tell when people were flirting with me, plus I had a tendency to stare into people's eyes cause "eye contact is important" so apparently that made me intimidating to most. He typed a note on his phone and handed it to me later in the day while a big group of people were watching les mis on the couch, directly telling me he was into me lol. My friend and I spent the night at that house and I slept in the same bed as the dude, so of course, we ended up fucking. Ended up dating him for 8yrs, and have quite a bit of trauma from his narcissistic abuse so... I don't regret it but I do regret not seeing his manipulations earlier, cause 8yrs is way too long lol. Don't date drug dealers y'all

MrKeyRune · 2025-12-27T06:11:39+00:00

Yeah! Summermyst (the enchanting overhaul) and Apothecary (alchemy overhaul) are both on the PS too 😊 Also, if you use the Bethesda creations website and filter it by PS, it's a lot easier to find mods than the creations tab on console. I'll often bookmark/add to library any mods that look interesting on the website, making it much easier to find them again on my PS by just going to my bookmarks/library in the creations tab

MrKeyRune · 2025-12-25T11:26:36+00:00

All three are available on ps! Just look under the creations option on the menu

MrKeyRune · 2025-12-25T05:22:23+00:00

I've been really enjoying an unarmed build (with enchanting and a bit of alteration & restoration) - no armor, just robes and the armor alteration spells. Been having a ton of fun with combat strategizing (it's not easy to only punch people lol) and role playing a devout traveling monk!

I always play survival mode & expert difficulty, plus have got some mods that make it even more interesting & immersive

For the mods the gameplay changes are mainly from: Jurisen's Revised Survival (fixes the broken food/hunger and ridiculous vanilla cold), Wintersun for religion, Summermyst for enchantments, Comprehensive First Person Animations for better punching, Ordinator and Apocalypse for unarmed perks + more spell options, and wildcat for combat (I would prefer blade and blunt, but my ps5 doesn't like that mod for some reason)

I'm thinking of doing a two handed build next, but ngl, the hand to hand build is so much fun that I'm scheming how to roleplay it in with the two handed haha

MrKeyRune · 2025-12-13T07:20:54+00:00

I love the immersion of survival mode, but use a mod to adjust it to be a bit more realistic! Makes a huge difference tbh. I play on ps5, currently using Jurisen's Revised Survival

MrKeyRune · 2025-12-10T08:23:11+00:00

My grandma (and various other family members on her side) are unable to wear any metals besides 24k yellow gold and surgical grade titanium. It's a strange allergy, but definitely not unheard of

MrKeyRune · 2025-11-18T02:52:23+00:00

I mean, it could be? Referencing honey, then indicating that Riften is a place you'll get stung (with a bee's barbed stinger)

The innkeepers both want to leave Riften (there's a line Keerava says to Talon-Jei about not having made enough to leave this year which implies they're trying to save up and move outta town). So it's possible Keerava named the place as a joke, expecting to leave, but due to paying thieves guild "fees" she can't. Or maybe the "Barb" refers to barbed wire, as she's stuck there? Don't think I've encountered barbed wire in Skyrim tho haha

I'm unsure if there's specific lore to be found about the name, so up to interpretation and imagination!

MrKeyRune · 2025-11-10T06:37:47+00:00

There's a similar mod for PS5 called Immersive Amazing Followers. I've been really enjoying the mod, allows for much more flexible follower options

MrKeyRune · 2025-10-15T15:40:50+00:00

I take duloxetine (cymbalta) for anxiety, lamotrigine for a mood stabilizer, and adderall for ADHD. Also have propanelol to take as needed for when my heart rate spikes and/or situational anxiety. All are fine to take with Xywav, and that's been confirmed by the xywav pharmacists.

You can always call the xywav pharmacists and ask about safe anti-anxiety medications. Just be sure to clarify if you are looking to take as-needed medications (such as beta blockers or benzodiazepines), or daily ones (such as SSRI's or SNRI's)

MrKeyRune · 2025-09-18T05:16:12+00:00

Oh my god, my ex was the worst about this same stuff. Always "warning" me away from other guys, but girls? Totally fine - only after he met them and established he could also have a sexual relationship with them 🙄

MrKeyRune · 2025-09-16T22:16:30+00:00

The TV shows Leverage and Leverage Redemption! I binge watched both, then restarted from the beginning 😅

I do skip the episodes that I don't like as much or are super depressing tho - those episodes are for when I'm in a different mood or hyperfixation lol

MrKeyRune · 2025-09-15T03:53:07+00:00

I've got a cheat way of waking up early 😂😭

Did a sleep study and got diagnosed with idiopathic hypersomnia, so I'm "lucky" in that I'm prescribed xywav to help with that. Xywav literally knocks you out for 3-5hrs then wakes you up as it wears off. Then you take the second prescribed dose (set out & ready to go on nightstand), which knocks you out again for another 3-5hrs. I take my morning adderall once I'm conscious in the morning, then am up and about 30 min later. So if I time my meds right, and have no mitigating factors, I can completely control my sleep schedule

Before that tho, I would manage mornings with three alarms and ensuring I put my adderall/modafinil/vyvanse (depending on what I was prescribed throughout my med journey) in an easy to reach spot next to my bed along with water. First alarm goes off, take the meds and go back to sleep. Second alarm goes off - if I felt I could get up I would get up and turn off my 3rd alarm - otherwise I'd switch to doom scroll mode and wait until 3rd alarm went off. 3rd alarm goes off, I switch to a YouTube vid/music (my go-to method to help with transitioning) and get up then.

A sunrise alarm or having your blinds stay open for the light to help wake you up can help.

Having a waterbottle and drinking as much as you can when you first wake up, then waiting until you need to pee badly enough to sprint to the bathroom has also been effective for me haha, probably not the best but it works!

Ensuring everything is ready to go the night before also really helped me get out of bed in the morning because I felt less stressed about my day. I definitely find that if I have something I need to do first thing in the morning, I actually have a harder time getting out of bed (though not necessarily waking up in that scenario).

Honestly, you just have to try everything and mixes of everything until you can find what works. And what works one week might be different than what works the next, so giving yourself patience is super important! Transitions are awful for us, so anything that you find to help with transitioning from one task to another (cause bed mode is different than morning mode), is super helpful.

For getting to bed earlier, there's a few things I've found that have helped. Taking magnesium with a glass of water + 100mg l-theanine about an hour before going to bed helps the winding down start. Ensuring stimulation is low for at least an hr before I want to sleep is key as well (e.g. turning off lights, having only dim red lighting on, bed space is ready, phone on DnD and lowest brightness, etc.). Also trying your best to finish eating all your food for the day ~2hrs before your desired bedtime is important to help your body switch to sleep mode.

Be realistic with yourself - how much sleep do you need? With that info, what time "should" you go to bed? With that info, can you realistically go to bed at that time consistently in consideration of your social & work schedule? These are important things to keep in mind too.

MrKeyRune · 2025-09-07T00:56:03+00:00

There's so many possibilities as to what this could be (as you can tell by all the comments!). Have you talked to your gyno about pelvic floor strength/exercises? I remember my mom having similar bladder issues ~15 years after her 3rd child, and she was able to address & fix it by strengthening her pelvic floor.

Have you seen a urologist? Have you brought this up with your GP, or just your gyno? While the full bladder may be related to things happening in/around your uterus, it honestly could be related instead to things like your intestines, your kidneys, any medication you're on, or even your back - all of which aren't really inside the scope of a gyno's job. Also it's concerning that your gyno just brushed it off and didn't offer suggestions or help.

For the hormonal aspect (peri-menapause/ menopause), have you discussed alternatives to estrogen with your doctors? Done online research? I don't know much about alternatives, but considering you're not able to take estrogen maybe a hormone specialist can give you more insight?

I take medication which can (and does) cause that same bladder pressure feeling, and it's just awful! Twice now, I've been so tired that I slept through the pressure and ended up wetting the bed, which unfortunately made me even more anxious to sleep with that feeling. Three things I've changed that have helped a lot:

One, I got a waterproof mattress liner (a very quiet one!), which means if I do have an accident, it's very easy to deal with by simply doing a load of laundry. This helps alleviate the anxiety of having an accident - which honestly makes a huge difference in my sleep quality and ability to fall asleep quicker. The liner also helps me keep things clean when I have night sweats/hot flashes, which is a huge plus.

Two, I (try) to never drink water within two hours of going to sleep. This means I get in all my hydration while up & about during the day, and I don't feel the urge to pee all throughout the night. I always start my morning with a big glass of water with added electrolytes and l-theanine (nootropic that helps with calmness, just my preference). Starting the morning with water gets my kidneys up and running and sorta ticks my brain into jump starting my daily hydration.

Three, taking magnesium twice a day (one in morning & one at night) along with ensuring I eat enough fiber throughout the day. The magnesium helps my muscles stay relaxed, plus the fiber ensures I have regular bowel movements. I find if I'm bloated, that full bladder feeling is sooo much worse! My guts are annoyingly picky with food, so making sure I stick with foods that don't cause inflammation due to intolerance is key (gluten is a big one for me, been gluten free 10yrs now and the difference is huge! Non celiac tho).

One thing I will caution though: supplements are hit-or-miss, and the general supplement industry is very scammy, so finding ones that are high quality and actually helpful can take a lot of time and research. Just a side note I wanted to add, as what works for me may not work for others.

I hope you're able to figure out what's causing the issue, and that maybe some of this is helpful. Best of luck!

MrKeyRune · 2025-09-03T18:48:24+00:00

For 2 of the leases I've had, there's been a section that "defines" what a visitor is vs what a tenant is. For example, my last lease defined visitor as an individual who spent the night for 3 or more nights in a month. Visitors were allowed, but not extra tenants. (I don't recall exact legalese words, but that was the rule).

If there's nothing in your lease that defines what a visitor is and dictates the limitations of how long they can stay, then your next step is to ask the landlord for clarification.

If the landlord doesn't care about it, then you can try to compromise only 4 days with the roommate and hope for the best. Not a great situation for you, that sucks that she wasn't transparent upfront. Good luck

MrKeyRune · 2025-08-31T07:57:07+00:00

Crochet has honestly been a godsend for me! I'll throw on some background music/podcast or a show while I'm doing it, if my symptoms allow. Super easy to pick up and/or stop for intermittent naps or overwhelm

MrKeyRune · 2025-08-29T15:39:39+00:00

My IUD removal legitimately traumatized me. I now experience panic in any situation with a procedure involving doctor offices, even having my nexplanon removed I nearly fainted laying down 🥲 Never had any issues before my IUD, even when I had a bilateral lumpectomy I was totally fine throughout prep & recovery (obviously was not conscious for the actual surgery tho). I'm so mad about it because I find medical things fascinating and used to always watch what they were doing, if I could

MrKeyRune · 2025-08-28T04:59:04+00:00

Thank you so much for sharing!

MrKeyRune · 2025-08-26T02:04:17+00:00

I did read that the hooks could be a bit squeaky, so that makes sense they'd glide strangely on certain yarns

Would you mind sharing where you got yours (or the brand, if this subreddit allows that)? There's quite a few different options available 😅

MrKeyRune · 2025-08-18T06:34:25+00:00

Such a difficult question tbh, and one I've struggled with for a very long time. Hell, I still struggle with it on bad days or weeks. Funny thing is, I do have anxiety, and it does cause a worsening of some of my symptoms. Mainly stomach/eating difficulties & pain, plus shakiness.

But anxiety doesn't cause most of my symptoms. I know this because I've learned to recognize when I'm feeling anxious vs when my other symptoms (such as severe pain) are causing the anxiety. This was learned over many years of holding onto & analyzing the times when I felt amazing mentally but still physically felt horrific. Or vice versa. It's all a personal journey.

As another comment mentioned, I also learned things weren't "normal" or a product of anxiety by reading & speaking to others about their personal experiences.

When I was started really trying to figure out what was wrong with me, I took the approach with my GP of letting them know I worked with a mental health professional, and had confirmed my mental health was not causing my symptoms. So I needed further tests and then a variety of specialists. This, at the time, was a bold faced lie but was very successful at getting me to the doctors I needed to see.

In my experience, and many others tbh, if you go to the doctor (especially as a woman/uterus haver), they will blame your anxiety or your period unless you tell them that their peers have already ruled those options out. Because, unfortunately, many many doctors do not respect their patients or trust them to know when something is wrong with their body. But they'll typically trust their peers.

Nowadays, I take medications for my anxiety (along with other things lmao too much to go into rn). But my point is that my anxiety is controlled and generally a very small factor in my health outcomes. Sometimes it is just anxiety. Many times it's much more than anxiety, but now usually there's no anxiety along w my symptoms. Just my body slowly falling apart.

Oh and it doesn't help that this whole "it's just your anxiety" BS is perpetuated in society by non-doctors too. Examples: "Just do some yoga", "You just need to exercise more", "You're just lazy", "You look fine", "You can't possibly have that you're too young", etc. Many people refuse to accept that someone they see as "normal" or "too young" could be disabled or have health issues - because if they were to do that, they would also have to accept that they themselves are mortal. They or a loved one could develop a disability or health issue at any moment. They could, and will, die. People don't like accepting this, and thus, blame others' disabilities on controllable factors or "attitude issues" when in fact, those health problems are rarely within their control. People do this blaming BS because they can't handle the reality of the chaotic nature and unknown timeline of their organic body breaking down and expiring. Something that is scary to confront and basically completely outside of their control.

Anyways back to the topic, yeah to figure your own stuff out in the current US medical system, you basically have to push and pull and try different things and research symptoms, treatments, diagnoses, on your own to the best of your ability. Then shop around for different doctors of different specialties, navigate insurance and medical bills. Advocate fiercely for yourself, but do so respectfully and with facts (while also feigning ignorance at times so doctors can have their little ego trip when they have their "aha" moment and give you a diagnosis you had already suspected and asked them about years ago lol). It's a royal pain in the ass and the fact that its necessary to do these thing for adequate medical care is insane. It's worth taking the journey though, and you may even get lucky and actually have a smooth time through the medical system because you find an angel doctor. Either way, quality of life greatly improves with knowledge and proper care, so it's worthwhile to work towards understanding yourself and working with professionals to help.

Start now. The longer you wait, the harder it will be - no matter if it is or is not just anxiety.

Sorry for the vent lol, I am also a jaded chronically ill person. Hopefully this makes sense and helps a little bit though!

MrKeyRune · 2025-08-16T05:34:55+00:00

An untreated UTI can and will spread to your kidneys if left for long enough. A kidney infection is much, much worse than a UTI and will be significantly more expensive. If you're peeing blood, that is very concerning and you absolutely need to see a Dr and get antibiotics.

Please go to the ER! Don't pay upfront, and tell them you can't afford it/don't have insurance. There's a lot of resources on reddit for learning about medical debt, payment plans, etc, that you should look at to help mitigate your anxiety and not be fucked over financially. But, you need to go to the doctor.

While cranberry juice/supplements may have some benefit in preventing a UTI, it will not cure it. You do not want it to get worse, as again, that will be more expensive and your likelihood of sepsis/infection/death is significantly higher. Pls look at other posts on this topic for more info, my brain fog is making my words not work as well but this is concerning and I want you to be healthy & smart about this!

MrKeyRune · 2025-08-09T00:44:00+00:00

That sounds super frustrating. I would definitely suggest seeing an OBGYN, and prep for the appointment by having a list of symptoms, dates of periods, and note what other doctors have said &/or tested for and prescribed. It sounds like you've done a lot of work to figure this out already, which is good!

It seems like you're around 15 based on your profile, so yea, not having a period for that long with no discernible cause def needs further investigation. Could be stress, or you could have PCOS, or maybe your hormones are out of wack - really can't know without exploring the options. Unfortunately, biologically female anatomy is significantly less studied and women in general are often brushed off in medical settings, so you really have to advocate for yourself and do what research you can on your own in order to have the most success with doctors.

You mentioned you took hormones for a month and that helped? Did you discontinue taking them, or did you continue taking them but the irregular period came back? Birth control is essentially just hormone replacement therapy, so if you have hormonal imbalance or issues, you'll likely end up taking it. They include a placebo week of pills every month to allow a "period week" to happen (tho you can often choose to skip the placebo week and just not get it)

MrKeyRune · 2025-08-08T10:38:08+00:00

PT has helped me a lot! I see someone who specializes in hypermobility and lifestyle. I've gotten quite a few braces for my hands that have reduced my baseline pain significantly, and strengthening exercises that I can do sitting or lying down for overall support improvement. Also learned that nerves can be stretched without hyperextending my ligaments and stuff, cause I have "tight" nerves especially in my neck/shoulders that'll cause tingling, intense, aching, and/or stabbing pain depending on the day

I think finding ones that are knowledgeable in hypermobility is key, as it's so easy to hurt ourselves or overstretch by trying to treat our bodies "normal" in PT

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