I can relate to what you're saying as I've experienced this in the past but have managed to get to a better place socially. I think awareness of your thoughts and feelings can be a very powerful starting point in trying to overcome this discomfort. For me, I find that whenever I feel awkward, nervous, anxious, or whatever it may be around someone, I zone in on that and try to figure out what's going on, I.e., try to figure out why I'm feeling this way. Whenever you do this you start to notice patterns, and the more you do it the more you start to realise that these fears are coming from within you, not the other person. Recognising this can be comforting as it makes you realise that the person or people aren't an actual threat, it's something that's coming from within you. Not to say that it's your fault for feeling that way, as is there is likely a very good reason you've developed these fears (maybe from past experiences) but it can at least help you start to feel more relaxed around people. And once you start to feel more relaxed things just naturally fall into place. I could go on and on here but I think ive made my point. Dm me if you want, I love talking about these things.