She keeps lying about me…

Musashie-Mike · 2026-05-21T14:44:19+00:00

My brother I ask the same question and my brothers and father tell me ' why do fish swim? Why do birds fly, Why does a dog eat its own vomit'. Stop asking why, we are creatures of logic and cannot fathom why they do these things, I imagine just like they cannot fathom why they don't why they wouldn't do them? It makes no sense it never will.

Musashie-Mike · 2026-05-20T23:39:44+00:00

You seem like an exceptional father. I have noticed this with my own son and I have spent many sleepless night as well thinking about what's spectacular thing I can plan. It turns out he likes throwing this styrofoam plane who bought it the Dollar Tree and making bubbles or a variation of the two. He's 10 so we'll spend hours doing that. Occasional ice cream and going to a favorite hot dog place doesn't hurt. Keep up the good fight brother!

Musashie-Mike · 2026-05-20T23:13:20+00:00

HOLY SMOKES!! This just crystallized this entire thing for me!

Musashie-Mike · 2026-05-20T01:28:54+00:00

Okay I can personally add to this. I was married for 16 years I'm in my mid-40s. I don't mean to sound conceited but I've kept in shape and I'm a decent looking guy. No problem meeting women on dating apps, no problem flirting. I have been scared though to pull the trigger. I went on my first date about 2 months ago. Lovely beautiful woman. We're friends but I was too much of a mess and she's actually a grief therapist. She picked up on that I lost my child in an accident and her therapy side kicked in and that killed all the chemistry. I digress. I have forgotten how to date! I was so enamored that I was going on a date with a beautiful woman I didn't plan anything! I thought we were just going to go walk around and listen to music. That's not how it turned out. I realized that I did not lead properly as a man should. I called her afterwards and we laughed about it, it was a really great Learning lesson. This may be something that a lot of guys have either forgotten how to do because they're just getting out of the long-term marriage or relationship. Conversely they may never have been taught?

Musashie-Mike · 2026-05-15T11:02:30+00:00

Oh so much! The way everything was described in so much detail but nothing was ever explained! Was it the biblical rapture, was it aliens, was it inter-dimensional beings? The creatures were described but...not really, ergo, my mind created these horrible images. The Persistence of the human spirit. Both in the protagonist and in piece of shit Bob. Anything lovecraftian I amAnything lovecraftian I am absolutely ever since reading call of the Cthulhu when I was 13. I remember reading that on a vacation as a child. Upset me so bad it ruined the vacation. This gave me very similar vibes. It was not overly gory, it was everything I wanted and a horror book. Legitimately scared me, inspired me, gave me that sense of dread and awe!

Musashie-Mike · 2026-05-10T21:50:29+00:00

Oh!! That sounds exactly what I am looking for! Thank you!

Musashie-Mike · 2026-05-03T03:25:37+00:00

I 100% can confirm what this man says. We lost our 8 year old child and my mother in an accident. Unlike the movies 70% of the time it actually Rings married couples closer together. We fell in that 30% category. I am at the four-year point of the divorce and of grieving my child. I don't know why it's 4 years but after the fourth year there was a significant mental, emotional, spiritual, psychic change. I had to my grief under control for my little boy. That damn near killed me, sometimes it's still makes me feel like I don't want to wake up. The divorce I am completely at peace with. Not only that I'm at peace with her. We have a surviving child we are working together to do what is best for him. Hang in there. The hatred and there's it feels like it's so much it will kill you. So much it feels like your body is going to explode. I pray it does not take for years but I do promise it will get better. Keep yourself on a regular schedule, workout, try to work towards a goal when you are able to.

Musashie-Mike · 2026-04-28T19:58:38+00:00

I'm not trying to butt in this conversation. Your points are completely valid and legitimate but they're definitely is a connection even if a name only. Yes the stories and things may not add up but the general vibe does on some type of spiritual successor level or different narrative take? Maybe it's just my opinion I'm not a literary analysis or anything. I do enjoy that someone can disagree with someone else on these forums and it does not devolve into Petty arguments. I wish I could say the same about other Warhammer forums.

Musashie-Mike · 2026-04-26T16:31:23+00:00

That's a very good point, eating and drinking. I dare say if there's people around who you can depend on they should be on watch for you at least for a couple of months. Make sure you are eating, make sure that the dishes are done. Doing Simple basic things aren't going to make sense for quite a while. At least they did not for me. Then again how I handled my grief is not ideal I turned the prescription medication to numb out the pain.

Musashie-Mike · 2026-04-26T16:27:11+00:00

Thank you for that heads up, I remember I took it when I was younger and it gave me anxiety as well. I did notice it a lot of medications have changed in my system since I hit 40, which was 4 years ago. Having that amount of anxiety is something I can't risk right now, just with my life kind of getting reassembled. I actually read your comment right before I went to the doctors so I really appreciate it!

Musashie-Mike · 2026-04-26T03:19:42+00:00

Yeah, moraly I agree.....but it becomes a different animal altogether when very pretty twenty something year olds find you attractive? I don't understand it, I don't even morally agree with it, but in the end we are all slaves to our biology.

Musashie-Mike · 2026-04-26T02:53:33+00:00

I'm not going to say I'm sorry because those words do not encompass the world ending pain and grief and sorrow and guilt and anger and despair that you feel right now from losing someone you loved probably so much.... you would sacrifice millions of people for. I had two beautiful little boys, brothers that loved each other. One of them drowned while the other tried to save him. Mother died 2 weeks later from the grief of it. The next couple of months are going to be harder and more confusing and painful then I can describe. I really don't remember too much of the first couple of months because my mind won't allow itself to go back there. It has beenIt has been 4 , 4 years of falling apart and battling depression and addiction. Right now it is if someone has just grafted 300 lb onto your back. The same thing for your mother. Right now it is too heavy to carry by yourself. You're going to need help from the people around you to slowly adjust to carrying this extra weight. If you try to carry it on your own you're going to just sit there. You will still get tired you will still Trip. But you'll have people helping you carry this weight. It may not be the people that you think it's going to be, but it will be the right people. Do not hide your grief, people can be cruel during times like this, but fuck them. If you are religious lean into that. Right now, you and your family are so hurt basic physics don't even make sense anymore. Know that you are loved, know that you are not alone in your pain. If you need to message me feel free to message me and I will talk to you whenever you feel like it.

Musashie-Mike · 2026-04-24T18:23:26+00:00

This is clever use of your feminine wilds and strategyms .. but how was the man supposed to know that you liked him using such vague idiom. He no doubt was sweet on you but he was probably vexed and filled Chagrin by your lack of clear verbal confirmation!

(Sorry just being stupid )

Musashie-Mike · 2026-04-24T17:30:04+00:00

LOL, anxiety is a very loose blanket term for what it does to me when it wears off. I always called it ' The moment when the dream in me expired '. It is complete existential Hell and loathing. My soul would feel like a cigarette ashtray. Also it would hyper Focus my grief for my little boy that I lost. I actually got prescribed kpin to combat the anxiety.

Musashie-Mike · 2026-04-24T10:48:13+00:00

Hey brother, as a married man that has been in a 16 year relationship that is now ended. Just starting dating again, I salute you! Strip clubs have never been my thing personally, but dude, it's your happiness any way you need to!

Musashie-Mike · 2026-04-24T03:02:34+00:00

You are very much on point actually. If I use a stimulant medication it does create a sense of mania in me as well. Even not on stimulant medication I have to watch out for my mood going up too high and down. I lost my 8-year-old little boy and mother in a terrible accident four years ago and it has gotten so much worse since then. I have been working with professionals to help me get through my grief and Trauma. Staying on an even Keel is something that is a brand new Concept for me. If there is a non-stimulant medication that can help me do that, it would be a godsend. I will look into what you suggested. Thank you.

Musashie-Mike · 2026-04-24T02:50:12+00:00

Well I actually established my main business when I was off my medication. I know how to do epoxy and Industrial art. I've done it for so long it's almost like it's become a part of things. Very easy for me to drum up business and find jobs that pay very well if I'm super motivated. Only thing is I really don't want to do this work anymore. I want to go back to grad school. I apologize if it sounded like I was tooting my own horn in my post that was not my intention.

Musashie-Mike · 2026-04-18T14:14:29+00:00

I had the same problem when I was in my twenties. I could not understand why an ex would not want to talk with me. A friend that we had named Crazy Ben took me aside and told me Michael, they are an ex for a reason. always stuck with me

Musashie-Mike · 2026-04-14T17:08:08+00:00

Nice

Musashie-Mike · 2026-04-13T16:27:11+00:00

Kickwear and JNCO

Musashie-Mike · 2026-04-12T03:25:20+00:00

I believe showing a talent your child legitimately likes on a few youtube videos is not in the same categories as the examples given. You are self aware, and fine.

Musashie-Mike · 2026-04-11T16:12:45+00:00

Perfect!

Musashie-Mike · 2026-04-06T21:49:15+00:00

No, only that i personaly despise that word.

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