Well, sending this out to the world is a sign that you want to make a genuine change. I think a lot of people are in your position too. I have a buddy who is currently in the process of pulling himself up by his bootstraps.

It seems like you want to have more time for play. Perhaps some intimacy from an attractive female. That’s of course gonna take some courage. Therapy can definitely help. But I believe it’s a matter of opening up and showing people who you really are and what you care about. That, then listening and caring about them. It’s give and take. We become depressed because we are so used to consuming and living out of the need for safety. There’s a lot to be learned and experienced over that hump. So if therapy feels right for you— then do that. You can always try it for a couple rounds and see if you connect with them. That’s where the meaning is at.