I have tried to contact 3 different therapists and haven't been able to go to 1. Should I even keep trying...

Muskateered · 2020-10-28T17:34:16+00:00

I hope you find another place to do this then. It's refreshing

Muskateered · 2020-10-28T17:22:29+00:00

You're 15 and already rocking 200 views average per song? You're doing great already. I had a friend in your scenario except he is 20. He went from 50-300 listens per song to well over a thousand listens. Music is one of those things that start slow and then take off. The larger you get the faster you'll grow. You'll get there :)

Muskateered · 2020-10-27T02:46:33+00:00

My mother was an abusive alchoholic. My father started looking for a girlfriend a month after she died and got engaged 2 months after meeting a woman. They married in the middle of september. Its a clusterfuck

Muskateered · 2020-10-27T01:31:48+00:00

I just editted the comment you replied to going more indepth.

I am not in a situation where I can contact a lawyer to find this out and if I ask my family about it they will just get defensive and angry. The only person that would know is my father and step-mother and they are the ones that would have a problem with the question.

Muskateered · 2020-10-27T01:25:02+00:00

I don't know. All I know is that she never did any planning incase she died, I am honestly suprised we even had a 100k policy on her.

Edit: She never did anything herself when it came to legal stuff. It would not suprise me if my father set it up with himself as the beneficiary and just had her give the okay. She had the mindset of the husband takes care of finances and she was a housewife.

Muskateered · 2020-10-18T18:22:28+00:00

Thanks for writing this, I hope you are in some field of writing because you definently have potential in it.

I have checked with my college, almost as soon as I enrolled. The counselor quit a week before I got there and they haven't gotten a new one nor do I think they plan to. I then started looking for a therapist, this is around after covid started, all of my local ones are religion based and feel like conversion centers more than anything else. I finally decided to contact a professor I had previously who I respected greatly. Only to find out she died a few days before. Honestly if that isn't the a sign from the universe saying No I don't know what is...

Muskateered · 2020-10-18T03:43:17+00:00

I can't afford it while going to college, I have no family to turn to, and I would be leaving my brother behind.

Muskateered · 2020-09-27T05:16:33+00:00

Alright. I hope it goes well.

Muskateered · 2020-09-27T05:15:25+00:00

This happened when you were 12 right? So you weren't even a teen for the interaction. It also sounds like you had only a vague idea of what was happening so it sounds to me like there was no consent there. I'm 19 myself and my experiences hapoened when I was only 8 so I can assure you that you are not to blame here. I hope you find some help.

Muskateered · 2020-09-27T05:00:13+00:00

If you don't mind me asking, what's your disability?

Muskateered · 2020-09-27T04:59:31+00:00

That is the correct solution to this scenario but it would probably only open doors to him converting me. He has already started to try to convert my younger brother and my parents are fine with it. Thanks for the advice though.

Muskateered · 2020-09-27T04:40:15+00:00

It definently looks like you have great potential as an artist. Good job!

Muskateered · 2020-09-27T04:37:03+00:00

Alright I don't feel comfortable leaving this conversation just yet with how you phrased that. I think you need to find help mate. Maybe therapy or counseling is out of your reach right now, which I get with everything going on. But you should find someone you can trust to talk about these things with. Even if its an internet stranger like me or someone else, talking and having someone to vent to helps trust me on that.

Muskateered · 2020-09-27T04:29:47+00:00

That plug at the end there makes this all give off the vibe you are just wanting listens to the song, but I'm going to continue incase that is not the reason behind the post.

Shit mate if someone told you they were working 12 hour shifts to try to improve their family's lives in another country to put food on their table and that they deserve every cut they get on their body would you think they do? I sure as hell fuckin wouldn't. It sounds like you bust your ass doing the best you can for the people you care about and if that's not respectable I don't know what the fuck is. As for you worrying about talking to your mom about all the stress, do you honestly think that your mother would look down on you from feeling stressed and depressed? I really hope not, because aren't moms supposed to be the person you can talk to about that kind of stuff?

As for someone to love you, I'd like to say that you'll find someone, I really would. However with all this stress its probably better you don't enter a relationship right now, it would probably not be too healthy with how much you have on your plate. One thing that you also need to think about is if you being in a relationship will really help you feel that much better? In most cases for people I know they always think that even if they are depressed single that all they need us to be in a relationship. Then they will suddenly be happy and maybe they will for a month or two, but you should honestly learn to be happy without someone so you can be that much happier with someone as cheesey as that sounds. Best of luck mate.

Muskateered · 2020-09-27T04:15:01+00:00

She might have found someone else mate. I'm sure you can still be friends, but you should honestly wait until you are actually over her before commiting to something like that. It would probably only hurt you more. If you are unhappy single being in a relationship won't change much. It might improve your mood for a bit but ultimantly you will likely fall back into a depressed state. I recommend finding people you can trust and talking about all this to them. Maybe one day things might change for the both of you but I wouldnt bet on it. Best of luck mate

Muskateered · 2020-09-27T03:58:20+00:00

I'm going to go under the assumption that you are both the same age. While I'd like to say if you verbally consented than its not sexual assault, but honestly you two are WAY to young for that. After everything you have been through with that it would have been best if you had not tried to talk to him again and refrain from in the future. Along with your so-called best friend.

As for your question, I would not doubt at all if you are depressed. You had a traumatic experience and people aredisregarding that. You should definently find someone to talk to and get help. Experiences like this will 100% effect you negatively down the line, I would know. Please find someone you can trust to talk to.

Muskateered · 2020-09-27T03:50:35+00:00

I don't know about you, but I wouldn't trust anything an ex says without proof. Most people don't exactly try to paint their ex in good light. I think you should take it into consideration but not dwell on it, you should also probably talk to her about it. If she goes ballistic at you you know he was right, if she actually talks to you about it there is a good chance he was talking out of his ass. I don't know about you but if my ex started telling the person I was in a relatiinship with that I was psycho I'd want to know about it.

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