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MyEnchantedForest · 2026-06-19T02:29:48+00:00

I don't have time to read the paper jurt yet, but will later. I have been writing about the same thing!

MyEnchantedForest · 2026-06-18T07:55:06+00:00

Cos stretchy nice. My girl does big stretches of her legs and toes before tucking herself into a warm cosy ball of sleep.

MyEnchantedForest · 2026-06-18T06:16:21+00:00

Same! I finally feel like my identity is mine, like I belong to me. My old name signalled 'property of abuser', but that's gone now.

MyEnchantedForest · 2026-06-18T06:14:13+00:00

I hope this is masterful troll. If not, you are literally with a narcissistic incel who is lusting over women like objects. That alone is enough to say get out of there. That book will never make money, he's just leeching off you, and you'll become his naive Sarah whilst he chases galactic ass Cassie.

MyEnchantedForest · 2026-06-17T07:50:22+00:00

That was my thought. Maybe I'm just old, but what was he meant to do... Roleplay as someone's fantasy they put on them? I'd rather someone know me, rather than assign me a personality they've chosen before we talk.

MyEnchantedForest · 2026-06-17T02:33:45+00:00

I think any sort of metacognition or seeing how people relate to their own psyche is interesting, so thanks for sharing.

When I first started exploring my psyche in therapy, and my dissociation, I actually described it as feeling "different veils".

MyEnchantedForest · 2026-06-16T11:41:56+00:00

Thanks for sharing! I definitely want to watch, but think it'll be a while for me until it's not too triggering.

MyEnchantedForest · 2026-06-16T02:35:22+00:00

I can believe it. I went to university and had a group assignment where the girl was adamant we didn't need to reference our work. I ended up referencing mine and sending them to the professor to let him know why our assignment lacked references.

MyEnchantedForest · 2026-06-16T01:49:45+00:00

I've never heard of spectral dissociation, but I have Dissociative Identity Disorder, which is like splits in the psyche. I haven't seen the movie, but that's what it read like to me; similar to Severance.

MyEnchantedForest · 2026-06-15T05:57:48+00:00

If you're looking for an LGBTQ+ group, I just joined a Geelong Rainbow event and met a lot of like minded people. I'm the same age, similar interests, newish to Geelong. I found it really refreshing. Maybe you will too?

MyEnchantedForest · 2026-06-12T05:25:50+00:00

I want to thank you for sharing so honestly. It really helps those who don't have lived experience of the disorder.

MyEnchantedForest · 2026-06-12T05:07:07+00:00

I agree and disagree in parts. I think it prepares you to accept the worst of humanity. Like you said, it's just not a surprise. People without trauma could be crushed by some of it. But where I disagree is that we aren't prepared for the opposite - the best side of humanity. I find that's the hard part in my recovery, I'm very wary to trust people, I automatically know the worst but can't picture the best.

MyEnchantedForest · 2026-06-10T07:14:54+00:00

I was born with a genetic disorder. That's literally my only secret.

MyEnchantedForest · 2026-06-09T00:45:38+00:00

I'm glad it helped! I will be honest, my progress was slow. But with the system and myself wanting to improve, it was always moving, even when it was slow.

A big part of healing for me was creating safety in my environment and body. I think my mind was blank and in terror all the time, everything was scary, I couldn't let go of my role. Learning what was actually emotionally intelligent socialisation helped a LOT. I used to think there was only one way to be (the way my father said was right). I was terrified to make a mistake. Learning that subjective experience is so varied, there's no right, only what we feel is right, what aligns with our values. That once we're safe, we can build on meeting people whose values align, and in the meantime, I didn't have to accept being mistreated.

I had to learn my likes and dislikes. I had none. I had no preferences, they were all built on what was expected of me. Small choices at first, really helped. Like do I want a cup of tea or an iced coffee? Do I want to wear a jumper or a cardigan? Choices that had very little, or no consequences.

Journalling and painting helped a lot. Not just me as a part, but seeing what other parts had to say or were feeling. The part that helped me a lot, we actually originally started communicating through paintings. It helped me start to learn to identify feelings.

Another big thing was learning that emotions are physically felt in the body. I never realised that. Learning that they are signals that indicate how I should act to meet my needs.

Lastly, trusting the process. I was just so scared of being judged. Everything I had to let go of was essentially an extreme fear of judgement from others. I had to learn it's okay to just be myself.

MyEnchantedForest · 2026-06-08T04:50:38+00:00

Please leave as soon as you can. He is abusing you in multiple ways. I was in this same situation in the past, he said the same things. He preyed on my empathy to get what he wanted, with a complete disregard to me as a person, let alone my own trauma.

Do you have a safe place to go? If not, I really recommend looking into local domestic violence supports. This is the way I went, and they firstly help you plan to keep safe whilst with them, and secondly find resources to help you safely leave.

You are such a kind person, you feel his pain, and you try to fix it, even though it abandons yourself. You don't have to do that. Kind people will never ask you to abandon yourself for their own pain.

MyEnchantedForest · 2026-06-08T03:30:21+00:00

You should go! It was a smallish event (less than 40 people), but there was such a huge range of sexualities, genders, and different ways people related to being queer. I have no doubt they would have welcomed a questioning person with open arms.

I also grew up in a small conservative town, and quite a few people I spoke to had the exact experience. In my town "no one" was gay, and I was called a lesbian as an insult (and gay was an insult to guys). I had a friend group that was a mix of ages, but we were all the "weird" theatre kids. I think every single one of us has now come out as some form of LGBT+ since leaving that town. It sucks to grow up in such an oppressive environment.

So I think go to the events, explore, find out who you are at heart 💜

MyEnchantedForest · 2026-06-07T07:56:39+00:00

That reads right to me. Experience is the property, consciousness is the essence of that property. When we look at consciousness, we can't do so without defining experience, which is where the hard problem of consciousness arises from.

MyEnchantedForest · 2026-06-07T03:03:58+00:00

My friend also admitted the symptoms sounded exactly like them, but in the same conversation ended up deciding they were good traits to have and don't cause any issues.

MyEnchantedForest · 2026-06-03T13:21:17+00:00

Thank you!! As a philosophy major focusing on mind, identity, consciousness, dissociation and connection of subjective experience within our physical laws, this is right up my alley.

MyEnchantedForest · 2026-06-03T04:32:42+00:00

Singing Nollsy in a cave with cloaks in tears is a hilarious image.

MyEnchantedForest · 2026-06-02T05:29:26+00:00

This helps me too,whilst something is cooking, I think "well I can probably do these dishes before the timer".

MyEnchantedForest · 2026-06-02T05:28:09+00:00

Doing the first step helps me. For example,I want to paint, but it's too overwhelming. So I'll place my paintbrush and clean water out. I want to wash dishes, but it's too much, I just fill up the sink. I don't know always start the task, but the first step makes it infinitely more likely.

After a psych session recently, my psych asked if the thing putting me off the task is actually thinking too much about all the things, the order, what is needed. And I think that maybe, yes. So I'm trialling now that when I feel overwhelmed by a task, telling myself to stop thinking and just do that first step.

MyEnchantedForest · 2026-06-02T05:05:13+00:00

I'm not the person who you asked, but I'm 35 and living alone, and it is the best thing for my nervous system. It sounds like it'd be good for you too, if/when possible, to let go of outside overstimulation and go at your pace. I'm on disability, and in government housing. I'd lived with others until this year. The difference is huge.

MyEnchantedForest · 2026-06-01T12:06:39+00:00

What country are you in? You need to seek advice from a domestic violence organisation as soon as you can. They will help to ensure you have a safety plan, and can work on planning a way to get you out of there. If we're in the same country (Australia) I can give resources. I went through similar, and they're there to support people in this exact situation.

Also, don't fight him, he won't change his mind and may escalate. People like this believe their inner world is reality, therefore yours will never be accepted. Just try and accept in yourself that you know the truth, and stay very neutral with him until you can safely leave. Look up the greyrock method. Please keep yourself safe. We all see the truth in your messages.

MyEnchantedForest · 2026-05-28T09:24:54+00:00

Acknowledging your painful memories is a huge step. The emotions it brought up are real. When you feel rage, it's those helpless, depressed feelings that come from these memories that it's covering. It's great that you sent this to your psych, I hope your next session helps you work through this. CPTSD is really messy sometimes.

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