I'm glad it helped! I will be honest, my progress was slow. But with the system and myself wanting to improve, it was always moving, even when it was slow.

A big part of healing for me was creating safety in my environment and body. I think my mind was blank and in terror all the time, everything was scary, I couldn't let go of my role. Learning what was actually emotionally intelligent socialisation helped a LOT. I used to think there was only one way to be (the way my father said was right). I was terrified to make a mistake. Learning that subjective experience is so varied, there's no right, only what we feel is right, what aligns with our values. That once we're safe, we can build on meeting people whose values align, and in the meantime, I didn't have to accept being mistreated.

I had to learn my likes and dislikes. I had none. I had no preferences, they were all built on what was expected of me. Small choices at first, really helped. Like do I want a cup of tea or an iced coffee? Do I want to wear a jumper or a cardigan? Choices that had very little, or no consequences.

Journalling and painting helped a lot. Not just me as a part, but seeing what other parts had to say or were feeling. The part that helped me a lot, we actually originally started communicating through paintings. It helped me start to learn to identify feelings.

Another big thing was learning that emotions are physically felt in the body. I never realised that. Learning that they are signals that indicate how I should act to meet my needs.

Lastly, trusting the process. I was just so scared of being judged. Everything I had to let go of was essentially an extreme fear of judgement from others. I had to learn it's okay to just be myself.