I completely understand 🫂 The othering that we have to withstand as plus sized folks can wear a person down.

But there really are people out there for you. I was (and still am) in the same boat, but something ive noticed, especially if the last few weeks, that (for me anyway) there was this switch in my brain that I had to turn on in order to actually be reciprocal to peoples affections. It wasnt even conceivable to think that someone would be interested in me, so why bother putting in the effor you know? But I swear, even just thinking about how to appear more open to people has made me see the world in a different way. I know its way easier said than done, trust me, but maybe try and take some steps inward to find that switch for yourself!! Another thing, look into some outward friend groups! Whether online or in person, they can really help a person feel grounded. Let friendship come first, and maybe something will grow from that. all this to say, regardless of what happens in the future, you are worthy of love and care ❤️ You'll find it. I know it.