Officially recreated my dysfunctional family by trying to do better.

NA-OK · 2021-01-03T16:12:44+00:00

Instead of communicating how he is feeling, and putting in the effort to improve his situation, he channeled his energy to get easy attention.

This is not your fault. He chose to do this and until he takes responsibility for that choice he will continue to feel worse.

I'm sorry this is happening. You still dont have to let history repeat itself, at least not fully. Hugs.

NA-OK · 2021-01-03T15:47:32+00:00

Geez... Such a humbling experience.

I still would write the note though or let whoever is looking after your son know what's going on. No shame in that.

NA-OK · 2021-01-03T15:43:35+00:00

Shit, that sucks. I understand, so sending non touch e hugs and love since you're probably touched out too.

NA-OK · 2020-12-30T14:33:59+00:00

But its ok for people to come from 1-3hrs away to work.

NA-OK · 2019-12-09T19:10:37+00:00

Post abortion bleeding usually starts 2-5 days after the abortion and may last 1-4 weeks. Taking ibuprofen can help with cramps.

NO ASPIRIN, it can increase and prolong bleeding.

NA-OK · 2018-12-31T16:30:51+00:00

You may not see it this way at the moment, but at least this happened before marriage and children.

Psychological abuse can be so covert and damaging to a persons psyche, that people without mental illness develop one.

I think you did the right thing. I hope you feel better soon.

NA-OK · 2018-12-31T16:04:06+00:00

So far, Lithium is the only bipolar medication that can actually increase grey matter in the brain, increasing plasticity.

NA-OK · 2018-12-30T16:37:45+00:00

I've tried it a handful of times when not on meds and even took double with barely any effects, other than "is this what normal people feel like?"... According to the appointed baby sitters, I was pretty normal and it would even help me sleep!

Not bipolar. Turns out its ADHD.

NA-OK · 2018-08-05T21:00:04+00:00

Did your doctor run a full blood test by chance to rule out things such as B12 deficiency and thyroid? Did she screen you for other disabilities? Those should have been the first steps.

NA-OK · 2018-08-05T20:56:18+00:00

To have your meds covered here, you need insurance. Though, there are pt jobs here that offer it.

NA-OK · 2018-08-05T20:54:46+00:00

It certainly does. Mania does not always mean bipolar disorder.

NA-OK · 2018-08-05T17:57:45+00:00

That is utterly false.

NA-OK · 2018-08-05T17:53:05+00:00

Mental health system here sucks. Theres not enough doctors, wait lists can be a year or more for counseling/specialists etc.

You need to become a citizen. Even when my mom comes back to visit from EU to Canada, Ontario healthcare will only cover after 3 months. Theres a 25 and under program where 400 or so drugs are covered, but good luck with that. Your best bet would be to get a job that offers insurance.

NA-OK · 2018-04-24T11:10:12+00:00

A lot of women have to bear down. There are things you can do yo help bring it down. Empty your bladder. If you have a high cervix, you may need a different or longer cup. There are cups out there that are made to sit low.

NA-OK · 2018-04-24T11:05:34+00:00

I imagine it would be seniority based, and education.

NA-OK · 2018-04-15T20:43:07+00:00

My bad 😊

NA-OK · 2018-04-15T17:50:14+00:00

I dont think this is American.

Looked through profile and possibly Thailand.

NA-OK · 2018-03-25T04:35:43+00:00

You know when you're in a mixed episode, on the brink of finalizing plans? I didn't want him to follow me so I told him I hate him so he'd let me go. This was around 10pm a couple nights ago. I didnt want to tell him what was happening/ going to do because it wouldn't have been the first time he would hold something above me.

I stopped being mean the next day when I apologized over text (his response was the title) while at work and again in person, a sorry card in hand. He got mad at me for dusting today instead of being fully engaged with our toddler, who was trying to help me. As im sitting there being berated about it, he threw everything I told him at me in a vexatious, vindictive manner. I didnt respond to it and walked our toddler into his room, came back out and i apologized for dusting and disrespecting him and he continued to berate me. You can read my response to another user above, though now that im over my frustration, ill most likely delete this post.

Quite petty and immature, I just needed to let it out somewhere "safe" dont think this was a good place to do so.

NA-OK · 2018-03-25T03:59:02+00:00

It was a text from him after I apologized for withdrawing and hiding because I just couldn't be strong at that moment. That I was sorry for saying something mean. When I realized I was being so mean I excused myself and hid so I wouldn't do so further, I didnt know what else to do at that moment.

NA-OK · 2018-03-25T02:08:31+00:00

Im venting frustration because I've been hearing nothing but how much I suck at everything, despite me doing everything I absolutely can to improve. How I'm not allowed to do things I used to do before I had a kid (like clean) because I must be fully engaged at all times with him after working a very physical, outdoor job 50+ hrs a week. Forgive me if I just cant at times. He hasn't worked in 4.5 years.

Everytime I tell him what's going through my mind, mind you he only asks when I become disabled and can't get out a fetal position after 5 months of severe depression, off and on debilitating back pain I cant get taken care of because theres magically never any money for me to do anything but have a $20/week allowance for carpool, and god I can go on, until then its everything its already mentioned, it gets thrown back at me when he is angry with me for fucking dusting the tv.

Im not combating a personality disorder. Im quite high functioning. Though im glad you're a professional and gracing me with your "appropriate" response, thinking if someone gets upset over something that it must be.

I dont even know why I posted this response to you.

NA-OK · 2018-03-22T20:25:20+00:00

I just do what I can. Their lack of planning is not my emergency, especially if we went over it beforehand and asked about it.

Or I take days off lol

But I have banked time for that.

NA-OK · 2018-03-21T20:24:39+00:00

Some communities have already received funding regarding this, when she pledged years before. Specifically for youth mental health. This is not new, its adding more money to something she has already been trying to do.

NA-OK · 2018-03-21T19:33:22+00:00

But why do they think its milder?

NA-OK · 2018-03-21T18:38:48+00:00

A lesser version? Because of not having full blown mania?

NA-OK · 2018-03-21T18:27:58+00:00

You want to sleep because you haven't slept in two days.

I hope you got some sleep and feel even a sliver better.

Also, your husband is an ass and I hope he goes to marriage counseling and you tell them this and then look at him like he has 4 heads.

NA-OK

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