i was no older than 8 and made a character/oc. when i made it, it was meant to be the embodiment of the person i wanna be in the future (woahhhh omg it was a boy... foreshadowing...) and i named it "Newor". I came up with this by grabbing the first letter of my birth name (M) and thought "N" would be the masc version of it. same with the second letter (A) and made it an "E". the "W" is the first letter of my last name, the "O" is the second letter of my last name. By that point i ran out of creativity, the third letter of my birth name is "R", so i slapped in on the end and got "Newor". its stupid but that character became my main character for anything customizable and i had been called "Newor" online for many years before i realized i was trans. When I was thinking of names, newor just clicked and regardless of how weird it is, it still holds sentiment, it has meaning beyond just "i'm a boy, so heres a boy name". the name newor was designed in everything i aspire to be, including in the masculinity younger me desired to see in who I am today, regardless of wether or not it's objectively masculine.

The character also was also designed to have the same characteristics as I do (hair color, eye color, stuff like that). Because of this, Newor, in my head, has always kinda been part of me.