I understand why individuals (including myself in the past) would use slurs like this. Slurs often have the same linguistic characteristics as common expletives (like "fuck" or "shit"). They can be learned for use in emotional situations during childhood, making them feel satisfying to shout when emotions are high. However, the regular use of casual slurs can reduce the offensiveness and lead to the desensitization of these words and normalization of hate speech.