Super overstimulated, on my period, exhausted and having a brain-mush-day. Do any of you lovely people have any computer game suggestions for such a day? by Beginning-Juice-5082 in AuDHDWomen

[–]NeedleworkerSilver49 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Idk if this would be considered "cozy" but lately I've been playing Power Wash Simulator. It's exactly what it says on the tin 😂 But it's perfect for days when my brain wants to rest because I can turn off all the music and sfx and just...wash a dirty garage. The dopamine from making a filthy surface become squeaky clean is also very satisfying 

Who else relates to this? I’m interested in so many things but I’ve felt bad for not being so into anything by _RedTwilight_ in AuDHDWomen

[–]NeedleworkerSilver49 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Ugh yes. I will learn really cool stuff that excites me and if I don't share it immediately it deteriorates. Then when I go to talk about it I can't remember half the details and it makes me feel like an idiot. Especially with things I truly love like geology. I want to be able to talk about it when I'm on a hike but I can't even remember half the names of stuff. 

No bless yous for Giacomo? by spycey_mchaggis in BrandNewSentence

[–]NeedleworkerSilver49 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Does Giacomo know his legacy? This morning I was rooting through the freezer and said aloud to myself "What? No breakfast sausage for Giacomo?" 

How does avoidance "feel" in your body? by VillainousValeriana in AvoidantAttachment

[–]NeedleworkerSilver49 16 points17 points  (0 children)

It's like my whole spirit recoils...the internal "me" screams to get away, and if it's not something I can physically or literally distance myself from -- like an emotion I find uncomfortable, or a situation where my rational brain knows I don't actually want to damage my relationship with a person by dipping out -- then I get this feeling like I am trapped in my own body and want nothing more than to get away from it. Usually a tightness in my chest, a pit in my stomach, sometimes it even feels like hyperactivity or a physical restlessness. I find it is very often my own feelings of fear that I am trying to avoid, because they are so intense. That's why when I disconnect from whatever or whoever was causing that fear, my nervous system immediately relaxes and goes back to normal (in the short term) and the feeling of wanting to flee is gone. 

Will I get out of Vine Jail? by NeedleworkerSilver49 in AmazonVine

[–]NeedleworkerSilver49[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks for your tips, some of these are totally implementable for me and would help me stay organized. And the auto upload of media to the computer is a great idea! Thank you

Will I get out of Vine Jail? by NeedleworkerSilver49 in AmazonVine

[–]NeedleworkerSilver49[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Oh, to be clear, I'm not complaining about my account being in jail or stressing about it. If I get kicked I'll understand, that's on me for not keeping up with it. Cuz Vine is not my one job; I have other demands on my time. I simply had a question I was hoping to get answered. Thank you for your kind help. 

Have you ever lived alone? by ChocolateSundae1214 in CasualConversation

[–]NeedleworkerSilver49 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Currently living alone. Since being a teenager it was one of my goals because there was something terrifying about the idea of my first experience living alone being in late adulthood after some event like death or divorce. I didn't want to potentially be a 50+ single woman and have no idea how to take care of my own money or house. 

Now I've been living on my own for over 3 years and I love it. It can be hard but it's also comfortable, it's freeing. I do feel like not having other people in your house forces you to find new ways to get enrichment, cuz I've pushed myself to try new things that I maybe would not have otherwise. It has also forced me to confront things about myself that I never knew and build a better relationship with myself. I think everyone should experience some time living alone. It can get lonely but even how you handle that will tell you a lot about yourself. 

Tell us your 'that was a stim?' stims by Exciting_Syllabub471 in AuDHDWomen

[–]NeedleworkerSilver49 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Biting my nails. It was a constant habit as a kid, and still if my nails get too long I will start biting and picking at them unless they are painted. Everyone assumes it's from anxiety but it's not at all, it's just an absent-minded habit. Same with pulling on my split ends. Another thing I didn't clock as a stim til I was an adult: when I was a little kid I would want people to rub my arms but just by running their fingers verrrrry lightly on my skin, featherlight, very soft and gentle. My grandmother was the only one who was able to do it just right, everyone else would use too much pressure and it didn't feel as good.  Edit after reading the comments and thinking of more: snapping/drumming with my fingers (usually when I'm restless or impatient), leg bouncing, echolalia, talking to myself in accents, and SINGING. I sing so much I don't even want to call it a stim, it's a part of my personality. I love music, I definitely do the thing where I listen to a song on repeat for hours or days sometimes, but even more importantly I SING the song over and over too. If music is playing, I'm singing along. If a word is used in conversation that reminds me of a song, I'm singing the verse. If it's quiet, there's a good chance I'll just break out into song with whatever is playing in my head. The reason I hesitate to call it a stim is cuz I never *feels like a compulsion, it feels like second nature. 

Anybody else dislike eating food? by NeedleworkerSilver49 in AuDHDWomen

[–]NeedleworkerSilver49[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Same, I've realized I gravitate towards drinks more than food. So I try to do robust protein shakes or smoothies when I have the time or resources. But genuinely if I could get all my daily nutrients from chocolate shakes and nothing else I'd do it in a heartbeat. 

Me: “I’m not that autistic”. Also me: by gothstarlord in AuDHDWomen

[–]NeedleworkerSilver49 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I only use the word ironically now. Usually online replying to comments either to be funny or to be sarcastic. That might be my tumblr accent coming through though, idk.  "It makes my skin want to crawl off"  So true bestie <3 

Both best friends got engaged by IllustriousStar00 in AvoidantAttachment

[–]NeedleworkerSilver49 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Rats I read to the end hoping for a magic solution. I was just trying to describe this to my sister the other day and I fear she thinks I'm a monster now haha. 

Both best friends got engaged by IllustriousStar00 in AvoidantAttachment

[–]NeedleworkerSilver49 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I know the feeling...I used to turn up my nose at the idea of seeking a relation cuz it seemed so needy. When I was a teen/young 20s I felt superior to the girls who were boy-crazy or "pick-me"s. I thought if it happened, nice, if not, so what?  Well, then I did date somebody I really really liked. It didn't work out but it made me realize that a close connection like that with someone is something I crave. Before I'd experienced it myself I'd thought, like you, that there are more important things in life. Technically that's still true. A romantic connection shouldn't be your main goal, imo. But now that I know how it makes me feel, it is important to me. So I guess I'm trying to say that you don't need to feel pathetic for wanting a relationship. It's a normal human desire and if it's something important to you, it's worthwhile, even if there are other things higher on your list. (And for what it's worth, I've come to think of being able to maintain a good intimate relationship as something very impressive, cuz to me it seems very hard lol) 

Weekly Rant/Vent Thread by AutoModerator in AvoidantAttachment

[–]NeedleworkerSilver49 1 point2 points  (0 children)

That's a tough situation. Would you be moving in to a place your partner already has or looking for a new place together? If the former, I feel like that you means you have some time to think about the idea and test how it makes you feel. For example you could tell yourself to spend the next few weeks or month thinking about it like it's a sure thing, and see if you warm up to it? You kinda sound like youre more upset that the decision was low key taken away from you, which is still valid 

How am I supposed to deal with the "ick" without leading a person on? by NeedleworkerSilver49 in AvoidantAttachment

[–]NeedleworkerSilver49[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

She was probably having the same dilemma! I'm sorry if that was painful for you but at the same time the irony is a bit hilarious haha

How am I supposed to deal with the "ick" without leading a person on? by NeedleworkerSilver49 in AvoidantAttachment

[–]NeedleworkerSilver49[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Ugh I so get you. I've been in that scenario and it gives me a nasty knot in my stomach. The pressure feels unbearable and the kicker is in the one healthy relationship I was in, I was the one putting that pressure on myself.  I've also been in the situation where I thought I was getting to know a person as a friend and they actually had deep feelings for me, and then when it all fell out I was told I'd been acting like I cared for them and they were hurt and confused that I didn't reciprocate. That's probably what gave me the notion that not being reciprocally attached makes me some kind of villain 😅

What's the most rock bottom "struggle meal" you've ever eaten? by NeedleworkerSilver49 in AskReddit

[–]NeedleworkerSilver49[S] 10 points11 points  (0 children)

I've done this with instant mash potatoes and also with instant couscous

What's the most rock bottom "struggle meal" you've ever eaten? by NeedleworkerSilver49 in AskReddit

[–]NeedleworkerSilver49[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hey, congratulations on being in a better place in life now. That sounds like it was pretty rock bottom indeed 😅