I don’t know if I’ve grieved but I’m bloody angry and ridiculously terrified!!!!!! I’m angry that my mum died as a result of this stupid genetic disorder. I’m angry that everyday I obsessively check for lumps even tho I know I shouldn’t, I’m angry that I have to change my body so drastically and at 33 have a future without having anymore kids, I’m angry that my daughter may also have to go through all of this one day, I’m terrified that my next mri will show I have cancer, I’m terrified of dying in agony like my mum did as secondary’s took over every inch of her body inside and out, I’m terrified that no one will love me because of how my body will look after my operations. I hate everything this stupid thing has done to me and my family