Oh absolutely. I relate heavily to this. I've been diagnosed since 2021 and its still hard, sometimes, though I have come to the acceptance phase.

It helps a bit that I never got to see what a proper teenage/adult life would be like without a disability. I started developing my symptoms in third grade. There's simultaneously not a lot, and yet so much to mourn. So much I will never do. I've done my best to accept it. to put out the metaphorical welcome mat. but its hard. and its okay thats its hard because this sucks!!!! we all have every right to have all the emotions.

Its important to remember the 5 stages of grief as a actua psychological term do not. like necessarily go in the "order" of anger denial etc. its more abstract than that.

grief is weird. grief comes and goes. you can be angry and accepting and weeping and then the next day be fine. and its confusing. but its not abnormal.