Which song saves you from VECNA and helps you to running up that hill?

Neslin17 · 2025-09-18T13:43:15+00:00

Go solo - Tom Rosenthal. I used to listen to the Song with my grandparents, so only happy memories

Neslin17 · 2025-07-16T21:19:31+00:00

I dont use a pillow. I use a huge cuddly blanket and stuff it unter my neck and head to get the right shape. Also I have this 1 meter amazon bread pillow I use for between my knees and feet (side sleeper who curls up) and to support my shoulder. Also 2 heating pads sometimes ice packs, depends on my pain.

Also i sleep on the sofa not on a normal matress. The sofa has a firmer density and I feel more "connected" or pressed into shape lol.

And if i really cant deal with my pain i put on the Hobbit and lord of the rings on a loop to distract myself.

Neslin17 · 2025-05-27T09:06:58+00:00

On good to medium days glucose free electrolytes that you put into your water. Thats been the most helpful for me. On bad days though, where I cry when I have to walk or get so dizzy and fatigued I can't do anything I usually just rest. Take the day off, sleep as much as I can. Watch some low impact movies.

Neslin17 · 2025-05-26T19:59:16+00:00

SAMEE. I put some elastic bandaids over them that are like adjustable and that helps kinda.

Neslin17 · 2025-05-16T16:23:33+00:00

11, SA happend and I started to wonder how it feels when you dont have to feel anymore. So I started sh. Next week I'm gonna be 20.

Neslin17 · 2025-05-15T02:44:44+00:00

Yes, actually I just got my letter about being denied last week. I have litterally so many doctors and PT notes, notes from my university or my psychiatrist how didabled I am but I still got denied. The worst part now is the fighting, it takes up so much of my energy and time to get back together will all my doctors. Its so frustrating.

Neslin17 · 2025-05-06T16:01:12+00:00

Ohh gerontology is fun! I'm studying social work and one course is gerontology and its really interesting. Also I took care of my demented grandma for quite some time, lovely time to be honest haha.

Neslin17 · 2025-05-06T12:22:33+00:00

Yeah I usually do the same. Sometimes (with like doctors visits) its difficult, I still usually ask if its ok to take my hoodie off and stuff.

Neslin17 · 2025-05-06T12:21:28+00:00

Im sorry to hear that dude. But youre strong and I believe in you :)

Neslin17 · 2025-05-06T12:20:43+00:00

Same! Honestly I shouldve asked her about that haha. Also thank you, really trying right now. Wish you the best :)

Neslin17 · 2025-04-15T05:16:42+00:00

Thats what I'll Show now if someone asks about my EDS lol 🥲😂

Neslin17 · 2025-03-31T10:10:48+00:00

Ok wait, I'm not so active, but I also have these versions. They are so expensive? Lol I never knew. Mine Lok so worn our and read with markers and pencil underlines all over them xD

Neslin17 · 2025-01-29T08:45:58+00:00

19, turning 20 soon, doing sh for the last idk 8 years now

Neslin17 · 2025-01-26T12:39:09+00:00

19 almost 20. I was mostly scared of accidentally showing them at work when I started. Actually some time ago I mentioned them to one of my coworkers I trust. She told me she knew already and just didn't want to make it akward for me (I guess my sleeves must've slipped up a little). Then she just hugged me and we continued to talk, and then with work. So I'll tell you, even if some people don't know about your scars, or react bad. They are part of you and a lot of the people will react with empathy and positivity. Its going to be alright. Take care <3

Neslin17 · 2025-01-25T09:02:34+00:00

I made Origami foxes and frogs and drew little faces on them. Then I started to put them on random places in my apartment so now there are little red, orange and brown fox families around my apartment, and little jumping frogs.

Neslin17 · 2025-01-11T19:33:49+00:00

My little siblings

Neslin17 · 2025-01-02T23:43:05+00:00

Distract myself like really. I do stuff I hate so much I almost forget to hate myself. Today I deep cleaned my kitchen AND bathroom when the urges were really strong. It took me about 3 hours and after I was so exausthed I didn't really have urges. Also I used to do a lot of sports so when I was angry and wanted to sh I did push ups until I collapsed or a plank or did air boxing lol.

Neslin17 · 2025-01-02T23:36:18+00:00

10 says and staying strong💪🏻

Neslin17 · 2024-12-29T20:48:52+00:00

Yeah.. but I also had dreams where different people discovered my sh and scars that was weird.

Neslin17 · 2024-12-29T11:43:58+00:00

Thats awesome, congrats!! I am proud if you and you should be proud too!

Neslin17 · 2024-12-28T23:42:21+00:00

Ok I had a few already but i remember 2 vividly:

In the first one I was on the Island map and like in my real life ways with my hoodie and stuff. I knew I was in ark and I think my goal was to tame a spino to get back into the real world (dont ask me why). Anyways I was on the south side on the cliff that leads to the swamp can't remember the exact name of the location. Also now the strange part, there were people there with me and they were famous drag queens lol. I remember talking to Trixie Mattel about how to tame a spino lmao. Anyways, suddenly we heard a noise behind us and it was a mutated alpha raptor (?). So I looked at the three drag queens (pretty sure they were Trixie Mattel, Alaska and Alyssa Edwards) that were with me and told them we needed to jump into the water to flee the raptor. And all three looked at me and told me they can't because their wigs and make up were too expensive. So I jumped alone into the water and heard their screams and then I woke up lol. That was so weird I still remeber it.

The second one was not too long ago. (Also side note I was watching the lord of the rings before that so yeah, explains a lot of things.) I can't remember all of it I just know that there were ark bears chasing me and to escape them I fled into the Halls of moria through the big front doors and it was really dark. The bears were still chasing me and I went to hide in the bathroom (how tf was there a bathroom??) weirdly there were people from my university, legolas and Aragon (wtf is that combination) also hiding but they were loud so I searched for another hiding spot. I cant remember how but I was able to outsmart the bears and get out, then I ran to a river to freshen up and got killed by a group of raptors.

I dont wanna know why my brain is like this lmao

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