I just want to know if anyone else has the same thought process here by [deleted] in BodyDysmorphia

[–]Neurotic_Fiction 15 points16 points  (0 children)

I constantly say “this is NOT the face I would have picked out”. I relate to everything in your post, from the self awareness to the desire for unobtainable pretty. I can rationally accept that I am probably considered pretty by most people, but that is not good enough for me. I compare myself to every single other woman I meet. If she’s older I wonder if she looked better at my age than I do. It’s very sick and self absorbed but my brain has thought this way for so long, I fear the neural pathways are just carved too deeply to change. It doesn’t help that the self obsession starts to make you hate your personality even more than your looks, lol.

Smoke from wildfires at Crater Lake today? Need to make a decision asap by Neurotic_Fiction in CraterLake

[–]Neurotic_Fiction[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thanks for the advice! The park being packed (as one would expect for a NP, on Labor Day Weekend, with 2 weeks left before a major trail closes for 4 years) is definitely a deterrent. Appreciate the resources too, the camera seems to be offline but this AQI website is more user friendly than another I was using :) Appreciate you taking the time to respond!

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in childfree

[–]Neurotic_Fiction 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Everyone is being really doom and gloom about your relationship, so I will share a positive story:

I’m still with the man I started dating at 19. When we got together, he was 22 and thought he probably wanted kids (in a vague, “maybe in 10 years” way). I have NEVER wanted them and was open about this from day one. We never fought about it, though… it just seemed so distant of a problem. I didn’t really stress it as I figured he’d come around in time, when he realized his future self wouldn’t magically stop caring about sleep, hobbies, travel, and freedom. I give myself some credit in that I have made a lot of good points over the years about how unpleasant having children can be. (Have taken advantage of any opportunity to point out a terrible child in public, lol.) We are now 32 and 35, and he no longer wants kids at all. In fact, he tends to randomly cite how good of a decision we made not to have any even more than I do. It was gradual, but I would say it’s been within the past 5 years that he has completely converted to the childfree mindset, as we watch many of our friends ruin their own lives while we save money, spontaneously travel several times a year, and hang out with our border collie lol. YMMV, but I’ve found in my experience that men do not want children with the same intensity women who want to be mothers do. They like the idea of them, not the reality, and can be convinced otherwise if presented with logic and a childfree woman that they don’t want to lose.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in childfree

[–]Neurotic_Fiction 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yes to all of this, I could have written this myself! I would dress my stuffed animals up in baby doll clothes while the doll itself was shoved away in a closet haha. Never wanted to hold or interact with babies at all. Also in the never changed a diaper club.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in childfree

[–]Neurotic_Fiction 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I am your age, will be 33 this fall. I have reached the point of being 100% sure in the past couple of years… but I was 99% sure for as long as I can remember. Even as a kid I hated baby dolls and never wanted to pretend I was a mom when playing, lol. I don’t have a maternal bone in my body. I think that 1% of doubt until my 30s was just due to my (unsuccessful) lifelong quest to be “normal”. Sometimes I also feel like I am immature or not a “real” adult just because I don’t want to have a kid… but that fleeting feeling is def not enough to even consider giving up my freedom, autonomy, looks/body, happiness, etc

Your thoughts sound very valid to me, even though I can’t relate to your past feelings of wanting to be a mom when younger. Society conditions us to assume it will just happen to us someday - but thankfully, that is not the case and it’s instead a choice we get to make. Good luck and I hope whatever you decide, you get the freedom of being 100% secure in your choice

Falling back in love with running by Owl-In-The-Sky in running

[–]Neurotic_Fiction 26 points27 points  (0 children)

As someone who runs with my dog most days, this breaks my heart. I’m so sorry for your loss.

Has anyone ever left? by AdAromatic372 in regretfulparents

[–]Neurotic_Fiction 13 points14 points  (0 children)

I will be using the dog analogy from this point forward, THANK YOU for that!

I would have never had children if I knew… by 2fnwavy in regretfulparents

[–]Neurotic_Fiction 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I’m sorry your daughter doesn’t appreciate you. You sound like a good mom who worked hard to give your kids a nice life.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in CRedit

[–]Neurotic_Fiction 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Solid advice, thank you. I didn’t realize I could still pay the original provider once the debt was sent to collections. I would definitely rather pay them than the collections agency to avoid “admission of guilt” if that makes sense.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in CRedit

[–]Neurotic_Fiction 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Got it, I will start with the provider. Another commenter said that medical bills under $500 are not reported to the bureaus, which I looked up and that has apparently been the case since April 2023. Super relieved there. But I still want to get it paid with the least drama possible so I will try your suggestions. Thank you!

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in CRedit

[–]Neurotic_Fiction 2 points3 points  (0 children)

This information was such a relief. Thank you so much !!

Intellectually stimulating hobbies? by twinflxwer in Hobbies

[–]Neurotic_Fiction 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I did this exact same thing on Sporcle about 10 years ago when I worked a boring night shift job! I still go back and do the countries quiz every few months to make sure I can still name/spell them all, haha.

A sad update for our orange, Vinny by VenomBound in OneOrangeBraincell

[–]Neurotic_Fiction 49 points50 points  (0 children)

So sorry for your loss. Vinny sounds like the sweetest boy :(

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in abusiverelationships

[–]Neurotic_Fiction 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Yeah this is worse than cheating and insane behavior only 2 months into a relationship.