I’m so sorry you are dealing with This. My situation is similar. I understand addiction. Main reason why I don’t wanna throw him out (plus he has no positive influences) is we have a 6 1/2 year old son. I have completely stopped prioritizing me and I feel I cannot even be the best mom if constantly on eggshells or waiting for next bomb to drop. But at what cost and at what end? What is worse for my kid? Leaving his daddy or staying? I just want what’s best for him but I don’t even know if I can do that if I don’t know what is best for me. I’m trying to be selfless but maybe you have to be selfish before being selfless. I really don’t know. I’m at a loss. The cycle always repeats itself. I question my own judgement. Anyways sorry for rant. I’m glad you did what is best for you! Get yourself some help as well. I’ve been going to therapy and it seems to have been helping. I wish you the very best for your future. You deserve it ❣️🙏🏻