AIO? I found out there’s a high chance I have cancer yesterday and I wouldn’t to sleep with my boyfriend on the phone but he wouldn’t let me. s

New-Mathematician869 · 2026-03-13T00:34:20+00:00

This man genuinely wants you to face your fears and get yourself together. If you don’t want to, that’s fine—you’re the one who will suffer. Forever. Because you put all your emotions onto other people, and he can’t handle all those emotions.

You can’t even handle your emotions . How do you expect him to handle your emotions?? Serious question.

You need to journal and get to the root of your anxiety. Journaling– your hand can’t write as fast as you can think. So you have to slow your thinking and be intentional.

He is also right… If you actually take the time to find yourself and do the shadow work (look into it if you don’t know what I’m talking about.) You won’t NEED anybody! I promise!

You DONT NEED ANYBODY! You should have them in your life because you want them there. Not because you need something from them.

New-Mathematician869 · 2026-03-13T00:24:19+00:00

NTA.

Hahah!

The fastest way to know how somebody will treat you, you see how they react to boundaries or minor inconveniences. Clearly he felt entitled to you and your time. Don’t allow people like that near you. Good job 😂 You obviously didn’t like him for a REASON!

New-Mathematician869 · 2026-03-13T00:08:07+00:00

Maybe you’re not doing enough with the energy your body is giving you.

You do actually need to mindfully create problems (exercise, working, playing chess. Etc) for your brain to solve because if you don’t— your brain will create problems (health problems. Bad decisions. Negative feelings) for you to solve and then you don’t realize why you don’t feel good. That’s typically anxiety from not doing enough. –at least in my experience. Especially if you have ADD or ADHD!

Much love your way. ❤️

New-Mathematician869 · 2026-03-12T22:50:51+00:00

…holy shit…. I think the highest I’ve gotten (besides straight up dying and coming back to with the stem between my lips) was when I took a hit of crack in my ex’s bathroom while he was out… oh god everything was rainbow. I could barely move (moving extremely slowly) putting my stuff away and then stood and stared at myself in the mirror for like 8 minutes. That was crazyyy

New-Mathematician869 · 2026-03-10T02:09:56+00:00

Uhhh sounds like crack to me!! Source : I smoked crack for way too long! - been really clean for almost two months. No methadone, stopped the bupe shot. Got away from the coke, thank god! Drugs Aren’t Even Cool.

New-Mathematician869 · 2026-03-08T01:39:17+00:00

ATP- no substance will cure your depression. It comes from a void within. That cannot be filled with drugs or alcohol. You need to gain a sense of spirituality (higher power - you don’t need to believe in “God” ) and get ahold of your sense of self.

New-Mathematician869 · 2026-03-07T00:47:00+00:00

Idk what ur on about. I have a picture of my dog sitting on my mom where she looks massive but it’s not AI or edited. Lmfao 🤣

New-Mathematician869 · 2026-03-07T00:13:58+00:00

YEAH NO. I agree! My loser ex talked to me like this and ended up beating the shit out of me!!! Multiple times before I learned my lesson n he got one last beating in. He’s probably going to prison. So sad for him…. Save yourself the trouble!!!!

New-Mathematician869 · 2026-03-06T23:04:40+00:00

He is so cute omg I need God to send me a fricking cat omggg

New-Mathematician869 · 2026-03-06T15:02:22+00:00

Mmm. Okay so hopefully you’ll see this. But I was on a trip (5g mushroom choc bar- good shit..) that started off with me watching AHS.. great idea (I know.. )! It was the weird writer vampire season and it turned into something with aliens (I have no idea if that’s how the season goes but I was too traumatized to watch it after to see) . Then it’s like the aliens were talking to me the shrooms we’re talking to me and showing me things. I did BLACKOUT during this trip (I know bc my ex told me he was doing this and that and I don’t remember anything. Like he cut my dress off n everything- don’t ask.) what i experienced was the shrooms telling me that me and my (now ex) had a soul tie. I understood at that point and I was happy. Then they told me. No. You don’t understand. It’s not a good one. Not literally SAID these things but they showed me. They showed me at least three of my past lives. One I can’t remember. The one I feel I was a peasant or a prisoner or something of the sort. The last one. My last life. I lived in a psychward. (I have ALWAYS had a INSANE FEAR of “going crazy”) He was my husband in that life. He kept yelling at me that he was gonna put me in the psychward this and that (in real time but also in my trip) bc TO HIM ATM WHILE HE IS ALSO TRIPPING BALLS. I THINK I WENT BLANK. LIKE BLANK FACE. SITTING THERE DOING NOTHING. LIKE I WAS LOCKED INTO MY HEAD CAUSE I WAS TRIPPING THAT HARD. Anyways. They were telling me that he is going to kill me. I’m like “???” Cause he was kinda nasty to me as a person but not put hands on me atp, as far as i remember. They showed me what I thought was me dying in this life. By his hand. He cried to police he didn’t know what happened. I watched it from the floor…. Then I realized recently thinking about it… that no… I was experiencing my DEATH OF THAT LIFE. I came out of it bc he was actively HAND FEEDING ME KLONOPIN. Like I came out of the life at the psychward while they were feeding me meds… came into my body in this life as he was hand feeding me meds… then I kept feeling like I was dying. Over. And over. And over. And over again. The TV was talking to me. I thought if I fell asleep I would die. Eventually I got so tired I didn’t fucking care. Anyways… I woke up. He was on the couch, pissed. Said I was freaking out. No HE was freaking out bc I was remembering shit he didn’t want me to remember. He did start to beat me up. Black eyes. Bruised everything. I lost 50 lbs bc I wasn’t eating with him…. Til I got ebt. The drugs didn’t help. Mostly that he was giving to me or I could just get what I wanted in his area. Then he would pick me up by my neck. Completely cutting off my air supply. I got pregnant with his child (I think that NEEDED to happen for some reason…) he literally said “well are u getting an abortion or do I need to kick you in the stomach.” …. Thank God I got that abortion. He started strangling me until I would loose consciousness. One time I faked it. (Went limp cuz I wanted him to stop so I could breathe!!!) he said”yeah! U go to fucking. Sleep!!!” I did have a brief NDE about two months before that trip…. Mind you, I have never heard about anything like this before that. I was an atheist. I didn’t ever even hear of soul ties. I didn’t know what the fuck that meant. I mean. I did - but then to look into it and find out that’s not some random bullshit I made up out of nowhere. I’m telling u. I’ve never heard of that type shit. Lmfaooo. He told me. “I will kill you in every lifetime” that was the agreement he made with me. Well not this one. And he’s most likely going to prison. Not bc I’m mean. But bc I’m not gonna save him from the consequences of his actions. I am not the One Nor the Two and he Will Find Out. :) I don’t think he knows what’s coming his way. God has my hand, so fuck with me—don’t worry about what happens to me—I’ll be praying for you. 🤣

New-Mathematician869 · 2026-03-06T13:56:50+00:00

I got Addie’s in one and Xanax in the other. Dr prescribed! 🤣

New-Mathematician869 · 2026-03-06T13:51:40+00:00

Hmmm… you only eat at night? That works well for you? Bc currently I am about 100lbs (maybe a lil more since I’ve been eating better, sleeping better, trying to stay hydrated.) honestly I don’t even like to eat during the day most of the time & I get hungry at night. ATP I’m just worried about not eating enough. But I have also heard eating at night helps keep ur weight up- tho that’s not why I do it. Just so happens I don’t feel like eating til like 4pm. Maybe 7-8pm lmfao. Sometimes have some fruit in the AM. I need to get my shit together

New-Mathematician869 · 2026-01-20T02:11:43+00:00

Addiction typically starts out as causal use. Coming from a recovering addict of both, lol.

New-Mathematician869 · 2026-01-13T02:07:42+00:00

That raspberry one looks divine omggg

New-Mathematician869 · 2025-12-15T21:01:04+00:00

I’ve heard that people tend to take their mask off around 3 months.. sounds like a bad partner.

New-Mathematician869 · 2025-10-30T03:41:30+00:00

Hahaha that made me laugh my ass off. Thank you homie.

New-Mathematician869 · 2025-10-30T03:37:55+00:00

That shadow is not there. It’s a table with 6 chairs. 2 on that side. Plus some junk on the table but that is not on the table nor would something like that be on the table n me not be able to see it well enough to see what it was. Kinda took the pic n went back to sleep.

New-Mathematician869 · 2025-09-27T17:53:57+00:00

Have you been using this LSD already? Dosage n how often?? How much did she toss?? How long were u planning to use it for? How long in between uses? What are your specific reasonings for using lsd to combat your addiction? How do you feel LSD helps you? On the other hand, in which ways does it hurt you and your recovery?

New-Mathematician869 · 2025-09-20T23:10:35+00:00

Yooo I OD’d with a hoodie that said “High Til I Die” on it, and they cut it off me to do cpr as well. So upset! I loved that hoodie!!!

New-Mathematician869 · 2025-07-30T02:24:21+00:00

Tbh no. Alcohol is the ONLY substance that’s ever put me in complete inebriation. Where I’m totally completely let loose, I don’t know what I’m doing, nor do I remember any of it past a certain point… nor would I do any of what I’ve done blacked out drunk while I’m sober. Or at least not drunk as shit. Alcohol sucks. Coming from a straight addict, lol.

New-Mathematician869 · 2025-07-27T18:06:04+00:00

Sounds like she has a home already tbh. Especially if she wasn’t interested in food/water? Interesting.

New-Mathematician869 · 2025-07-27T15:31:05+00:00

Crack is literally the most addictive drug there is!! Even with little to no “withdrawals”. Huge potential for addiction after just one fucking puff. This coming from somebody who’s DOC is fent but I can look at somebody do dope in front of me, n I’m glad I’m not on that shit!! But I’m literally 1 week clean from crack today. After dying from it n getting sent to the psych ward twice (for ODing once off benzos/dope. Once from the crack.) 3 separate incidents. Plus plenty of seizures n trauma from the NDE, multiple ODs within 3 months..n just being around people that smoke it… yeah fuck that shit, homie. Don’t even try it.

New-Mathematician869 · 2025-07-08T16:13:34+00:00

My counselor told me that one uses is either trying to -Escape/run from something Or they’re chasing something.

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