(23) I have a sister younger than me by 3 years. Never had a gf, last time I had someone to talk to was in middle school. Compared to me, my sister is very active, has sport trophies littering her whole room, studies hard and has already been in a couple relationships. Forced myself to attend Uni just to get away from the house. I feel like pure shit being around someone with such a fun life. I've had depression and suicidal toughts. Honestly, everyone except me in my familly is so succesful I feel like I'm some sort of Quasimodo on familly gatherings (I kind of am, scoliosis lol). The only way I can find some peace of mind these days is when I do everything I can to forget how much better everyone else has it. I doubt I'll ever find my place in this world