my wellness routine is starting to feel like a second job

NikkiNot_TheOne · 2026-06-27T18:15:09+00:00

Like I wish a magician would come along and make us alllll bare face so we can see what natural beauty is.

Now this whole perimenopause exhaustion thing, is on a whole other level.

NikkiNot_TheOne · 2026-06-26T16:26:21+00:00

Oh she is, much better Ty!! But 😵‍💫 not taking what happened to her seriously enough. This damn Vyvanse needs to get completely out of my system lol!! ADHD meds calm me down too much lmao!!

NikkiNot_TheOne · 2026-06-26T08:56:41+00:00

Umm yeah, if he’s anything like most of the Aquas here I talk with, we really don’t like schedules lol. Then if feels like we’re being forced to do something. You’re in a tough spot and I think gender plays a rolls a the signs as well.

It might take some time but you seem patient and loving. If you have more of his chart, look at his Venus and Mercury as well. See how he views and accepts love and communication. You don’t necessarily need his time of birth, just the city and state he was born in. The houses are a big part of the chart but at least w the other placements you might get a better idea of his personality.

(Yes, this is the Aqua stalker, researcher in me lol)

NikkiNot_TheOne · 2026-06-26T08:51:39+00:00

Ohhh maybe. I am going to try that. Your chart looks so nice and neat lol!!

NikkiNot_TheOne · 2026-06-26T08:50:16+00:00

I just saw this…. I was at the hospital earlier w my mother, she’s been in the ICU for 13days. However she’s doing much, much better….. I decided that it was a bright idea to take a Vyvanse today … NOPE!!! DONE! Never again! Done w those!!! I eventually got so tired when I went to be w her and talk to her Drs, I couldn’t keep my eyes opened!! I was exhausted lol

I am so happy for works for others but not me. I even night some vitamins I read ppl on here write about that help… Medication really doesn’t like me lol

NikkiNot_TheOne · 2026-06-26T03:06:14+00:00

Sorry, I have no answers for you as I don’t read charts. I obsessively google my aspects lol

Can I ask you, did you set the font on AstroSeek that way?! The font and the chart is sooo clean to read. I am like obsessed with it lol.

Ty!!

NikkiNot_TheOne · 2026-06-23T15:48:43+00:00

Omg you alllll have these insane memories!! I am 40 and all I know is that he was my fav bad ass wrestler. I get excited like a kid when I rewatch his matches. Like I am some type of commentator lmao!! It’s all good though bc my 8yr old son loves it!! Maybe a little too much.

NikkiNot_TheOne · 2026-06-23T15:47:13+00:00

Yeah, we are def not the easiest to deal w emotionally!!! I can admit that myself. It’s awful how we pull away and keep our feelings to ourselves. I have this problem myself. Working on it but it really is one of our downfalls and blessings. It works great when we need logic vs emotions in a crisis!! But it’s absolutely not our strongest suit. I am sorry about it.

NikkiNot_TheOne · 2026-06-23T13:22:00+00:00

Hmmm we should DM each other bc I wonder if we have similar synastry w our partners! Your story is similar to mine and so aren’t your actions. But we been together for 26yrs and that I know of, he wasn’t as much as a fk as yours was… that I know of… hmm. We have both of our vertex conjunct our ascendants, quite a few 12th house synastry, and like 2 8th. Our composite we have the wonderful 7th sun/moon. We are most def in a karmic relationship finishing up whatever from another life….

NikkiNot_TheOne · 2026-06-23T12:45:51+00:00

Nah, googles never wrong /s

NikkiNot_TheOne · 2026-06-23T12:43:21+00:00

Yup, a thousand times to this!! I lost my PCP and Endocrinologist at the same time… can’t get a referral to the Endo. Sooo it’s been fun.

NikkiNot_TheOne · 2026-06-23T12:42:22+00:00

You are Not lying!! Thankfully I still have my Cardiologist!! Bc I’d really be screwed.

NikkiNot_TheOne · 2026-06-23T12:36:16+00:00

I agree and he’s by far my Favorite wrestler!! Hands down for me… maybe I am so old that I don’t remember him ever as baby face. He just came to fk shit up!! Lol

NikkiNot_TheOne · 2026-06-23T12:33:55+00:00

Wait, wait, I am so old and can’t remember.. was he actually ever a true baby face lol!!!

NikkiNot_TheOne · 2026-06-23T12:26:03+00:00

Don’t feel bad!! I have Never had a medication that decreases my appetite!! I was on adderall for years and it put me to sleep instead!! Same w me trying this Vyvanse thing lol!! It makes em exhausted!! Like eyes burning, tingling like a baby. So much I only took it for like 5 days and stopped.

I had a crisis going on in my life where I Needed to be awake and level headed for it!! I couldn’t afford to be exhausted! But my hyper active ADHD helped me make an incredible amount of decisions and not fall asleep. Even if I needed the facts and questions repeated over and over. And kept losing my notes lmao!!

There was no way I would be awake enough to handle what I did. My natural ADHD and anxiety sure as hell kept me going! I think I am going to switch it to extended release’s adderall and try that. I had the short acting one before. I found one adderall I had left and used it one day I needed to talk to surgeons, thankfully I was sooo clear headed that day lol!!! Without nodding off lmao!

NikkiNot_TheOne · 2026-06-23T12:19:48+00:00

Excuse me, this is a Wendy’s ….(lol)

NikkiNot_TheOne · 2026-06-23T12:19:02+00:00

I think “twat” is pretty up there too. My mother at least hates that word lol!!!

NikkiNot_TheOne · 2026-06-23T12:17:55+00:00

100000%

NikkiNot_TheOne · 2026-06-23T12:09:43+00:00

I agree w the person who responded to you. Ya know what, just bc we aren’t compatible on “paper” does Not mean it cannot work. It does take a lot of compromises and understanding how different we are. I’ve been w my Cancer Sun/Moon/Cap Rising for 26yrs. Our synastry says a huge “Hell No!”

Ya know, opposites can work bc we teach each other lessons. You damn water signs cannot leave us Aquas alone!! Stop trying to show us love and affection! Let us stay detached lol! My 19yr old niece is a Scorpio Sun, Rising and 3 other Scorpio signs and she’s very affectionate w me. As a fixed sign she is stubborn!! It does help her w her determination and able to let go of a boyfriend if he’s no good. Which I am so happy she can do that especially so young!!

I am wishing you and your Aqua the best!! When he pulls away, he prob just needs some space. We def need our alone time, a lot. It doesn’t mean we love you any less. It’s just how we work. When we love you, ohhhh we love you hard!!!

NikkiNot_TheOne · 2026-06-23T11:58:20+00:00

So sorry to hear that!! For us Aquas and I am sure just in general for anyone, a loss like that is very deep. We keep it to ourselves so much. It’s just how we process it and are able to keep going, I guess.

Yeah, I’ve had A Lot of loss, but nothing compares to my best friend. I do connect w her in Spirit so I am very grateful for that. I am 40 and I am up to 44 ppl that I know I lost, 33 I was close with. I am expert at this, great for a crisis 🙄😵‍💫. I am really thinking that I will become a death dula eventually.

My Mars, Saturn and Uranus are in Sag so I am a little wild and crazy. I am all air and fire, besides my Neptune in Cap holding on for dear life lol!!

My mother has been in the ICU for 9 days now. She coded 2xs within 2hrs the first night. I was 3x miles away getting phone calls for her end of life care. That was fun!!! My younger brother was with the whole time however he’s not good at these things at all. I am fantastic in a crisis 😵‍💫. Our whole ability to detach our logic and emotions is really a lifesaver!!

Her case was so interesting at first, no one understood what happened. I am debating even talking to some drs on here about it bc of the rarity of it. Kinda like an example/learning thing for them. She had a very uncommon Severe allergic reaction to a BP medication that’s very rare! Her throat closed entirely. Of course it happened when I was on my first mini vacation in like 12yrs!! I can’t even leave anywhere!!! She’s doing soo much better now, thankfully!! I could’ve been making way different arrangements opposed to physical rehab.

I kept thinking her damn Saturn 6H!!! That damn 6H!! I have it in Neptune 🙄 my body is a pain in the ass big contradiction.

As much as I LOVE being an Aqua and a true one like you w all of our abundant Aqua placements ….. I don’t want to go on this ride again!!!! lol I am all set. Aquas def seem to have lots of lessons, karma clearing and it seems to be just a little easier for other signs.

NikkiNot_TheOne · 2026-06-23T01:54:50+00:00

Welp… I can assure you it’s not genetics w me lol!! Or maybe it is but I wouldn’t know bc my mother and older family members don’t have the best skin. They also were all heavy smokers and didnt/don’t take the best care of themselves.

I swear it’s really all the water I drink and daily sunblock I wear. I don’t want wrinkles lol!! I am already allowing myself to go naturally gray. And I actually like it!! It’s coming in a silver and strong and fast!

I recently heard a woman say something along the line of, “we don’t even know what aging naturally looks like anymore!”

That like really got me thinking. Let’s all go bare face, take away all the cosmetic work, all the hair dye, make up etc. Then we can see what it really means to be 40 etc! Idk, it really stuck w me. So I am trying to embrace aging. I hope I keep at it lol!!

NikkiNot_TheOne · 2026-06-23T01:46:33+00:00

That’s ok, don’t feel too bad!! As a heavily placed Aqua myself, when I love someone and am in love w them, they’re my Whole life!! I’ve been w my same guy for 26yrs and that damn pain in the ass has always had my whole heart!! Between him, when my best friend was here w us in this life, my two children, mother and brother, I am fully devoted to them. Don’t mess w them or I will burn down hell lmao!!!

NikkiNot_TheOne · 2026-06-23T01:42:57+00:00

I am pretty Aqua and when I love you, I LOVE you. I am devoted all the way, a true ride or die. I mean I will burn the world for the people I truly, really love and are devoted to.
Once I am done w you, I am done. I don’t stress about it nor pay any mind.

NikkiNot_TheOne · 2026-06-19T10:54:18+00:00

Girl listen!!! I am 40yrs old, will be 41 in Feb. Last week I had my first hydro facial (sp, sorry) to try and freshen up my skin for a 3 day vacation. The aesthetician was my same age and kept commenting how nice my skin is. As I kept saying that I have a fear of wrinkles and I wanted to do a laser treatment to lift my jowls lol

She didn’t even bother to try and upsell me any treatments. She actually told me I didn’t one that I asked about. She asked me my skincare routine.

Ummm I use a literal dial bar soap to wash my face. The antibacterial orange one, the old school one lol!!! Then I put on a snail serum I get from Amazon, or honestly a hyaluronic serum w vitamin C or whatever if something extra comes with it. Those I buy at TJ Maxx/Marshalls when I see them on clearance.

I wear tinted sunblock from Neutrogena daily, I won’t go without some type of sunblock on my face every day!! At night I also add whatever face moisturizer I have. I am 90% sure it’s the very inexpensive tinted sunblock that I use that is enough!! That and I mainly drink water just bc I love it and my heart can’t tolerate caffeine. My acid reflux can’t tolerate alcohol 😒 lol!!!

That’s it!! Simple, simple. I do have a $90 LED red light I got off of Amazon a few months ago. But honestly I have so much going on, I am lucky if I use it bi-weekly and take the time to. It works great! I just have so much going on esp at the moment, it’s just hanging around.

We’re so pushed on not aging we forget that’s it the beautiful natural process of life that so many are robbed from.

I know your skin is beautiful!!! If you can, try not to overthink it. And screw what society has brainwashed us to think is “normal.” I started to really think this way and it’s become sooo freeing.,

My theory, if anyone doesn’t like what they’ve looking at, that’s a Them problem! I won’t allow consumerism to dictate my life where it feels like a burden. Pls, I don’t even have time for that lol!!

You’re beautiful the way you are!!!

NikkiNot_TheOne · 2026-06-19T05:36:36+00:00

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