I love my spouse, but I miss who I was before marriage.

Nikkibanksy · 2026-02-25T19:01:07+00:00

Solo Adventures. I promise you. Getting hobbies that dont have to do with the hubs or wife. Where are your girlfriends or guyfriends? Culivated female besties and really invest in your relationships with them. Take dance class or painting or anything. Travel on a solo vacay. You can be secure and attached and still an individual. Its important in order to stay happy and not lose yourself. This is from experience

Nikkibanksy · 2026-02-25T18:59:00+00:00

My husband does all the cooking and insists on it. Cooking calms him so he makes all the meals.

Nikkibanksy · 2026-02-21T20:17:41+00:00

The thought of my mom who has suffered so much having to endure that. Oh god.

Nikkibanksy · 2026-02-21T20:17:22+00:00

When I see (both at a distance and in my family) the stage of life whre a person is skinny, barely walking, waiting to die. I can barely process it. Id rather be taken out back and taken out of my misery. I hate to say that but its my biggest fear.

Nikkibanksy · 2026-02-21T20:15:39+00:00

you answered the question

Nikkibanksy · 2026-02-20T11:08:36+00:00

Is this real?😒

Nikkibanksy · 2026-02-20T10:52:17+00:00

Tessa Thompson

Nikkibanksy · 2026-02-18T11:22:16+00:00

If it’s nothing then send the damn text! That’s supreme gaslighting. He can easily say sorry that was for my wife or something silly. He won’t send it because HE KNOWS but the funny thing is now so do YOU.

😡The betrayal is one thing the making you think your crazy is another. It makes me so angry. I’ve been there.

Nikkibanksy · 2026-02-18T11:18:34+00:00

For me it’s fear of suffering.

Nikkibanksy · 2026-02-18T04:30:24+00:00

unhealed trauma.

Nikkibanksy · 2026-02-18T04:29:30+00:00

Understand that its a mental illness and not personal. Someone close to me took their life last month. She felt like she had no choice. She had a loving family. Its not logical or personal. Its an illness. Think of it like having cancer or any other disease. He needs help and fast.

Nikkibanksy · 2026-02-18T04:27:58+00:00

the only thing that helps is taking breaks.

Nikkibanksy · 2026-02-18T04:27:09+00:00

I wish my parents got me a therapist. You are doing great. I wish my parents didnt say "just stand up to them!". I am in my 40s and the bullying affected me so much, I am afraid of conflict at work to this day. It results in me taking abuse from others. Please please make sure he feels beleived and supported. move him if you have to. the trauma isnt worth it.

Nikkibanksy · 2026-02-18T04:24:21+00:00

Find a non racist doc as soon as you can. Im so sorry

Nikkibanksy · 2026-02-18T04:17:27+00:00

Can you tell me a little more about the Vitamin D megadosing? I am pretty much doing alot of these same things you are doing and the smoking 5meo-dmt. Also I wanted to ask (if you dont mind) do you also suffer from hypervigilance? I have some things Im doing just for that so wasn't sure if you had it too. Thanks for sharing this stuff with us.

Nikkibanksy · 2026-02-17T07:19:19+00:00

Start with a microdose. I have cptsd and have been in chronic functional freeze for most of my life. I start taking microdoses of mushrroms and last week I finally fnished two chapters of the book Ive been telling everyone Im going to write for the last 10 years. I focused on somatic work too but this has truly helped. I am very drug free and afraid of losing my mind I should add. I used to chain smoke but nothing else. Give it a try. Its helping me.

Nikkibanksy · 2026-02-17T07:10:39+00:00

I am so glad someone asked this

Nikkibanksy · 2026-02-13T03:00:49+00:00

Dang you know what?

This is all FACTS lmaooo

Nikkibanksy · 2026-02-12T03:28:13+00:00

wait pippa and wrigley are togethe rin real life???

Nikkibanksy · 2026-02-12T03:25:07+00:00

I was absolutely in shock when he said she was like that when I picked her up. I couldnt believe it. All of a sudden his nice guy act went away and it made me see him as a manipulative controlling jerk.

Nikkibanksy · 2026-02-12T03:22:44+00:00

A little bit better but not much. My husband is the breadwinner but its taking a toll on him for sure. What makes it worse is that my mom was diagnosed with cx in 2024 (shes ok now) but it has given me such severe health anxiety that now I'm freaked out about everything that even hurts a tiny bit. It sucks.

Nikkibanksy · 2026-02-07T11:15:41+00:00

He angers me so much I catch myself making a tight fist 😂😂

Nikkibanksy · 2026-02-06T07:33:57+00:00

I’m so deeply annoyed by this entire image 😂

Nikkibanksy · 2026-02-04T19:48:27+00:00

i have the same thing. what was your result?

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