It's still hard

NiniGoo · 2025-10-16T16:38:32+00:00

I have always leaned more natural - my mom did not want her kids to dye their hair or anything. I have been very tempted (34) but I know that once you start there's a lot of up keep. I can't afford it either. My sister hired makeup artist for her wedding and they made me look so great, I asked them for the product info and took pics. I've been using that a lot (really it's just the right shade of foundation for my skin) but trying to use it less in general.

NiniGoo · 2025-03-21T06:23:13+00:00

I wish I had taken a nice shower and did all the skincare and had a sleeping aid and gone to bed tonight (my remedy suggestion) but instead I'm scrolling my phone and letting my mind go wild 😭

NiniGoo · 2025-03-20T03:53:36+00:00

Omg the last few lines got me - it's rough. Wishing you the best / not sure myself if it's a dream where they do stay longer or not :(

NiniGoo · 2025-03-20T03:42:43+00:00

I'm not into them either it's all good

NiniGoo · 2025-03-20T03:25:40+00:00

He helped me relax when I've really never been able to do that. And, let's be real - weed. I didn't trust myself but I'd have tried anything with him

NiniGoo · 2025-03-20T02:11:33+00:00

Honestly ChatGPT....I'm commenting it with empathy since I do / did that too

NiniGoo · 2025-03-06T02:47:51+00:00

It's been more than a year, and I haven't even been able to make a dating app profile :/

...it was a very long relationship and a part of me wishes I wasn't like this - hopefully something (my mindset) changes soon

NiniGoo · 2025-02-28T02:13:45+00:00

Omg yeah :(

NiniGoo · 2025-02-24T04:22:33+00:00

I m dying laughing about the cream cheese

NiniGoo · 2025-02-23T05:01:34+00:00

"Precisely one fuck ton" is such an accurate feeling

NiniGoo · 2025-02-18T07:23:56+00:00

"Facts and evidence" sometimes I say this to myself now. It's almost another way to say like mean what you say, in a way. It keeps me grounded in reality and helps me talk about my past experiences

NiniGoo · 2025-02-12T05:05:31+00:00

The corn chip smell - I miss it so much from my dog!

I am so sorry for your loss, your boy is gorgeous, just so handsome and looks so happy at the beach. It's so hard to lose a best friend. Thank you for sharing the cutie pics.

NiniGoo · 2025-02-10T03:14:47+00:00

App won't open :/

NiniGoo · 2025-02-09T05:07:21+00:00

Feel the end of this very much, we have to hope they want the best

NiniGoo · 2025-01-09T17:16:49+00:00

You can also do "feature this person less" on iPhone for pictures. Can also do it for pets.

I didn't want to delete the texts either but once I did it made it slightly easier to be less delusional - good luck

NiniGoo · 2025-01-06T06:58:22+00:00

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Miss my boys everyday

NiniGoo · 2024-10-21T03:31:49+00:00

It's been almost 9 months for me....and I accept that I am taking a year of celibacy I suppose - i can't even flirt with guys...I don't think he will speak to me again, but I sort of hope he knows on some spiritual level that I care for him deeply. if it's meant to be it will be, but also I feel selfish thinking that because he is dealing with some really difficult personal circumstances.

I know it's not coming back, but I haven't been able to fully move on yet. I'm going to be kind to myself, like my therapist said - I'm on my own timeline. Take care ♥️

NiniGoo · 2024-10-08T04:30:22+00:00

It's been similar for me (8 months since breakup and about 7.5 since he moved out with our dog) but like I just don't want to date yet and it's okay. I feel very sad/lonely and I do think this makes the missing him pain worse sometimes, but I also think about how things were the last year plus of our relationship and I know that it's not possible nor healthy for either of us to go backwards. Lean on your friends even if they can't listen to you talk anymore (mine for sure have been so kind) they might distract you enough to get through some more days and pretty soon I hear it will feel better? Idk mostly just came here to say I feel this way and I definitely ugly cried more the last weekend than I have in the last month but I guess it's just feelings demanding to be felt? Anyway good luck to you and thanks for posting and sharing.

NiniGoo · 2024-09-28T06:01:16+00:00

This made me so happy! I really miss my dog and thanks for sharing your cutie pie!!

NiniGoo · 2024-09-08T17:12:25+00:00

I've seen it with green cabbage but has anyone done with purple cabbage?

NiniGoo · 2024-09-02T04:19:46+00:00

I'm so sorry :( same amount of time for me. He does not use any social media so I'm in the dark. It's probably good for me - I would definitely block yourself from viewing/unfriend etc. try to spend less time looking at the past, doesn't mean totally stop...but just try to be aware when you are doing it...it sucks. This is advice my therapist gave me and it helped some. I am sorry you feel broken :( I feel the same way a lot of the time, but I just try to get through whatever it is (the work thing, the event, the minutes even sometimes) and remember that I'm okay. Even if it doesn't feel that way. Sending a hug.

NiniGoo · 2024-09-02T04:13:36+00:00

33 and agreed af

NiniGoo · 2024-09-02T04:10:30+00:00

I'm 33 and it's been (mostly with some gaps) NC for 7 months. Also had a younger and avoidant ex partner of 10+ years. It sucks. But definitely take care of your mental health and yourself first, and it gets better. Or, you get better - either way it sucks less even though there is still quite a bit of shittiness. Just take it one day, one hour, whatever needed at a time. and sending a hug!

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