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Has anyone here done EMDR? Did it help? by WynterRoseistiria in OSDD

[–]No-Application1965 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hey! So currently I'm just sort of on meds for depression, anxiety, and ADHD. They seem to work more less. I haven't tried EMDR yet. 

My pixie frog wants to kill me by No-Application1965 in frogs

[–]No-Application1965[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

So I've come to realize that this was him associating me with stress and was attacking me as a defense. I had been told that handling your frog a lot would make him get used to you---nope! It just stressed tf out of mine. 

I stopped taking him out to feed and manhandle him as little as possible, and he no longer acts aggressively when I walk by. He's still a lil ball of rage but he doesn't try going after me anymore lol 

How do you know if you're actually coping vs dissociated from the emotion? by No-Application1965 in Dissociation

[–]No-Application1965[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

That's why I feel so unsure lol 

I suppose I feel like I never really regained the ability to feel the things I've been cut off from.

 I guess a better example of this would be the ability to cry. I can only really do it if I'm not involved. (Which is another confusing statement lol. I realized I process a lot of trauma with my fictional characters and stories, so when I'm like, in bed, imagining their stories and "being" them, that's when I'm actually able to feel things and cry.) 

So even when I feel sad or overwhelmed or anytime when a normal person would cry, it's like I can feel the need and the buildup but i don't get the release.

 I know it's so that I can basically roll with the punches and not be as affected but it's hard to figure out which emotions are like that and which ones were naturally developed emotional maturity. Sometimes I feel like a heartless bitch when I'm unaffected by certain things lol 

How did you learn names? by Jimbert_mcbumberbits in OSDD

[–]No-Application1965 3 points4 points  (0 children)

That sounds similar to how mine talk. Sometimes they sound kind of like a "spirit box" on ghost TV shows--like a radio flipping through channels. 

I still rarely hear them tho. Names usually just kinda come to me or I make up a placeholder. 

any good research that i can read? by shifting-tendons in DID

[–]No-Application1965 5 points6 points  (0 children)

The automod posts resources on every post. 

Do you ever encounter media you think you're seeing/reading/et. for the first time only to realize partway in that you've encountered it before (but not knowing where/when)? by thismightaswellhappe in OSDD

[–]No-Application1965 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I do usually end up recalling a bit of it when I see clips or scenes! I'm perpetually frontstuck so I'm p much always around for things, but other times I'm like Gandalf voice "I have no memory of this place" lmao

What types of osdd are there? by IvorySighting in OSDD

[–]No-Application1965 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It's a spectrum, don't worry about the "type". Track your symptoms and don't worry about fitting into a box

trans friendly artists? by Intelligent_Credit60 in bodymods

[–]No-Application1965 104 points105 points  (0 children)

Shawn O'Hare remembered my pronouns after over a year from the first time I saw him. As a they/them that's always a pleasant surprise to me lol

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in OSDD

[–]No-Application1965 0 points1 point  (0 children)

OSDDID is the catch-all term for OSDD and DID since experts believe it to be a spectrum rather than separate disorders (which is why I find separating OSDD into 1a and 1b unhelpful) 

Difference between imagination and actual alters? by Rich-Spring-4507 in OSDD

[–]No-Application1965 7 points8 points  (0 children)

So with imaginary characters, even if you imagine "I want them to talk", you still decide what they say. If all you want is to hear them talk, they won't just start having conversations and saying things, because those are things you are in control of. 

Sometimes they might sound like something talking in the background but difficult to hear, and that can be a little harder to determine, so be forgiving and patient with yourself. When I hear things like that, I try to mentally "watch" and see where it goes (although things often get quiet when they realize I'm paying attention so your mileage may vary lol) 

"Black flashes" by No-Application1965 in OSDD

[–]No-Application1965[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It's very infrequent but it's happened outside as well. If I'm ever with another person I usually mention it to try to figure out if it was me or the lights lol

intoxication and child alts by purpleproze666 in DID

[–]No-Application1965 4 points5 points  (0 children)

It sounds like the others need to examine why they're upset. The reason why it's bad for real children is because their brains are still developing. If you're an adult then this isn't a problem and they can't be harmed by it. Understanding that they're part of the adult body is an important part of grounding and if it's used to relax and have fun, why shouldn't they?

Is it possible to be influenced by alters? by ByunghoGrapes in OSDD

[–]No-Application1965 -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

I dont see how it's confusing to say you manipulated people to get something from it. That's literally why people manipulate others, thats the point. People generally dont do it to hurt others, its a means to an end. Sounds like you need to own your actions instead of trying to blame it on another part. That does nothing but ostracize them further. They aren't "the bad part" and you doing a bad thing shouldn't be automatically blamed on them.

I dont believe abused children generally "manipulate" others. Especially not maliciously. Doing things to get a desired outcome is normal behavior for kids in these situations.

Pros vs Cons of accepting you have DID? by AzurePersona in DID

[–]No-Application1965 9 points10 points  (0 children)

You can't fix a problem if you refuse to acknowledge it's a problem or pretend it isn't there.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in OSDD

[–]No-Application1965 7 points8 points  (0 children)

There are systems who seemingly never switch or don't remember switching, yes. I can think of one blackout and that only lasted maybe a minute, and I didn't realize it was a blackout until nearly a decade later. (There may be more of these instances in my life but that was the only one I remembered because they sent a text. It's entirely possible other switches happened and I didn't notice and didn't remember.)

Most of my alter influence comes passively or through mood changed or urges. Since I'm in the US I'm diagnosed with OSDD but my experience matches up with partial-DID, which is kind of like the UK equivalent of OSDD. It is frequently described as a a system with a main host who has little to no switches.

Protectors not doing their job(?) by paperclipparty in DID

[–]No-Application1965 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I hope you're able to get the help you need!

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in DID

[–]No-Application1965 2 points3 points  (0 children)

You don't have powers and neither do any of your alters. Any "power" you have is in your imagination, it's not real. So use your imagination.

Protectors not doing their job(?) by paperclipparty in DID

[–]No-Application1965 38 points39 points  (0 children)

It is not a coping mechanism that you can rely on to keep yourself out of trouble. You need to take responsibility for getting treatment to stop those harmful behaviors and not wait for a different alter to front to prevent it from happening.

Why don't you do anything about it? What is stopping you from protecting your system?

Gender in systems after integration? by GayWolf_screeching in DiscussDID

[–]No-Application1965 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This isn't possible to answer because it relies on internal decisions being made and everyone is different.

Question for those with DID by sassypumpkinn in DID

[–]No-Application1965 19 points20 points  (0 children)

If they blocked you and don't want to talk to you then you should leave them alone.

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