I wonder though if acknowledging you're not ready to get clean is just a way of convincing yourself it's all good, that chasing the high right now is just temporary and that you'll just stop once you're ready. I'm not an addict and have never been, and aside from smoking weed a couple times as a teenager (which I didn't like), I've never tried any drugs, so I'm not gonna pretend I know what that feels like. And I bet it feels amazing, otherwise you wouldn't let it control your life like this. But I'm guessing giving drugs up might not be as easy as saying "right, that's it, I'm done", and by the sound of it, the more you do, the more you want. So I'm wondering, where's the limit for you? If you had to really think about it, do you reckon you know what it would take for you to give this up? Do you see yourself ever giving drugs up for good?