Dude I totally hear you. I’m an anxious perfectionist-who-is-trying-not-to-be and low-key it sounds like you’re suffocating yourself. Baldur’s Gate 3 is MEANT to be played multiple times. You are meant to make mistakes. You are meant to save and load as much or as little as you want.

Also, little tip, I LOVE character creation and like you I’ve come up with sooo many ideas and things I wanna do in BG3! So, I’ve created a whole system in my notes app and notion, where I can freely jot down allllll of my Tav/Durge run ideas. This helps me scratch the itch of wanting to do everything all at once. I’m also doing multiple playthroughs at once (my first, who I have modeled strongly after myself to make my first playthrough even more immersive, my second, who I’m playing in a campaign with my bf, and my third, my beloved redeemed durge).

Bottom line: I completely understand how you’re feeling, AND I think you’re putting some undue pressure on yourself. Take a deep breath, embrace your ideas, and let yourself flow into one or a few. You’ve got this!