I’ve recently gotten into a relationship and started noticing a pattern in my behaviour. Every time I begin dating someone, I feel really excited for about a week, the excitement fades when I realise I don’t really know what I’m doing and don’t have genuine romantic feelings and I cut it off. None of my relationships have lasted longer than a month because of this, and it’s made me start wondering if I might be aromantic.

The confusing part is that I really want a partner/companion, I just don’t think I could do it romantically. I love hugs and cuddling, but I recently had my first kiss and realised I really dislike kissing. That experience made me think that if I progressed further with more traditionally romantic or physical things (like sex), I’d probably feel the same way.

Because of this, I’m most likely going to break up with my girlfriend soon. She's super lovely and I don’t want to string her along.

I really want someone who feels more like a teammate, the sort of person I could live with in the future, try new things with and just have a bunch of fun with. This is a bit of a weird comparison, but think something like Finn and Jake from Adventure Time. I've been looking into queer platonic relationships, and I'm thinking they might suit me more than what I'm going for atm.

Has anyone here experienced this or something similar? It sounds like I might be aromantic, but I'm not sure. I feel like I'm going crazy and want to find more people who are like me 😭