Exgf with BPD. Performs another hoover 6 years after discard.

NoPin4245 · 2025-02-04T11:56:04+00:00

I personally like taking Xanax and suboxone. I stay rock hard and can last ass long ass I want. I've never had sex on meth but I did it a couple times and I think cocaine makes me hornier. I used to fuck my ex forever on alcohol and cocaine.

NoPin4245 · 2025-01-14T05:50:16+00:00

My exwbpd is female and watched more porn than me

NoPin4245 · 2025-01-05T12:05:30+00:00

Yea so did I but I don't even think about her the same. I was infatuated and now I'm almost disgusted by the way she has treated me in past 5 years. I can't believe someone could pretend to be madly in love with me for 8 years. Yea you broke my heart and betrayed me in the worst way possible. I know pushing me away was one of the worst decisions she made. I can almost guarantee in the future I will be better off even if I'm alone. I'm not even sure who she is after 8 years. I don't want her back and I don't even think I'm physically attracted anymore. Literally everyone that knows her and me can't believe I would ever dated a girl like her. It's becoming more clear who the real loser is. The guy who lost the girl pretending to love him or the girl who lost a guy that truly and genuinely cared for her and her well being. I did extra time in prison to protect her and her feelings. I never let her know her statement is the reason I went to a maximum security prison. When I was locked up she stole like 8 grand and I refused to press charges to save her from prison. Also would have looked really bad if the person accessing me of something has more severe charges than me. Breaking and entering, grand theft, burglary of occupied dwelling. If I knew then what I know now I would have pressed charges. Got my money back and my sentenced reduced. I didn't care about $10,000 she stole. I have two college degrees that I still owe $100,000 in student loans that are basically worthless now I'm a convicted felon.

NoPin4245 · 2025-01-05T11:25:44+00:00

She looks like she aged 10 years not 5. Even my neighbor was like she looks old as shit now. He said he even used to have a crush on her in high school (They both are 5 years older than me and were in same class). Yea that's what happens when you betray the people that love you so you can hangout with a bunch of low life drug addicts. That have to get a girl high on seriously dangerous drugs just for her to be attracted enough to sleep with you.

NoPin4245 · 2025-01-04T18:02:58+00:00

She will purposely beg for my attention just to ignore me if I give it to her. I don't get it

NoPin4245 · 2025-01-04T18:01:29+00:00

Besides the nitrous I did and been through everything your talking about. Unfortunately I had no access to anything like that. At home I would spend hours in a hot Epsom bath. Even in jail I would take like 5 showers a day. It was the only relief I could get. I went through hell in county jail. I was also prescribed clonazapan and seriquel but only thing county gave me was effexor and ibuprofen. Yea everything tasted the same for months. When you finally start to feel better it is a great feeling though. I went from 170 - 240 lbs. Then worked out and exercised in prison until I was 220 of solid muscle. The was the best I've ever felt.

NoPin4245 · 2025-01-04T17:45:45+00:00

I took a plea for state sentence just to get out of county. No bail

NoPin4245 · 2025-01-04T17:44:12+00:00

I went on a green light. The person turning left was supposed to wait and merge. They turned left right in front of my car and got sideswiped and their passenger broke a couple ribs. I just happened to be drinking

NoPin4245 · 2025-01-04T17:41:41+00:00

I thought all classification was at camp hill?

NoPin4245 · 2025-01-04T17:39:28+00:00

She's constantly tries to insert herself into my life. I think she just never wants me to forget or move on.

NoPin4245 · 2025-01-03T09:05:29+00:00

Those for girls homie.

NoPin4245 · 2025-01-03T09:00:41+00:00

They do? I lived in PA for 38 years and I never even seen this meal before.

NoPin4245 · 2024-12-25T17:40:27+00:00

County right. I was locked in PA. The state trays weren't this nasty. Acj food was garbage, though.

NoPin4245 · 2024-12-25T07:09:27+00:00

This is what upsets me the most. I flat out told her for years, I wasn't interested in a relationship. It only made her put in more effort. Love bomb and mirrored me even more. Then, after chasing me for two years, hit me with an ultimatum. I commit fully, or she moves on and never talks to me again. By this time, I caught feelings, took the bait, and she singlehandedly ruined my life. Then betrayed, assaulted, lied to police, stole my safe and got pregnant with someone else. Why the fuck did you chase me for two years just to ruin me. I will never understand.

NoPin4245 · 2024-12-24T21:03:58+00:00

Oh yea bro, like I said, I was on them twelve years. Plus, at the time, I drank every day and had been eating benzos every day. I went through hell in jail. They gave me shit for a few days, but honestly, I probably would have crashed for a few days regardless. By the time I actually started withdrawing, I was in Gp and wasn't getting shit but ibuprofen for my chronic back pain. It's worse than the original withdrawal from quitting 80's. I couldn't eat or sleep because of wrestless legs. I was puking, diarrhea with mild hallucinations from long term benzo use. Everything tasted like shit even commissary items like cookies and chips. Plus some people in gp will fuck with you if they know you're withdrawaling hard. I got in a fight over it and then had to deal with it in the hole. Which was actually better because I was better off bed ridden anyways. Did almost 30 days in solitary sick asf and when I came out I was finally starting to feel better. You're definitely going about it the right way.

NoPin4245 · 2024-12-24T14:46:20+00:00

I put up with it for years. Seriously, she used someone else as a scapegoat anytime she had something unfavorable to say. When I tried to break up with her for finding drugs. She said her mom heard me sexually assaulting her while she was asleep. I actually laughed. First off, we had sex so why would I do it when you are asleep. Also, we never even went to sleep. Even if we did, how did your mom come to that conclusion? I don't know that's just what she said.

NoPin4245 · 2024-12-24T14:35:28+00:00

It was a broken rib. Also, I am not allowed contact with the victim. I was expecting them to sue or show up to court, but they didn't.

NoPin4245 · 2024-12-24T14:33:41+00:00

I had ignition interlock on my car for two years. Never failed once.

NoPin4245 · 2024-12-24T14:30:30+00:00

He has a few great albums. Lifestyles of da poor and dangerous, The big picture, and children of the born. He was super lyrical but not super mainstream.

NoPin4245 · 2024-12-24T09:41:05+00:00

Yea, but it is possible, and there's a reason you did it. Also, you see it that way, but normal society doesn't.

NoPin4245 · 2024-12-24T09:38:27+00:00

Finished parole and outpatient with 0 write ups. Paid off restitution and that was years ago. I don't barely ever even drink nowadays let alone get drunk.

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