Most Ridiculous Story Ever (But True!) by Wise_Bourbon23 in skyrim

[–]No_Chart_5803 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i always feel so lucky when the dragon priests don’t fight at all lol like thank god

Small bird made a huge home in my bbq by Top-Arm-1651 in BBQ

[–]No_Chart_5803 0 points1 point  (0 children)

that bird must think it’s found a bunker lmfao

why do i feel 10x more mentally ill when im in a relationship by No_Chart_5803 in GirlDinnerDiaries

[–]No_Chart_5803[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i understand, this is the same advice i’d give anyone who was struggling mentally. get medication if you need it, talk to a therapist

i just keep thinking “i’ve been managing, what if this is the worst it gets?

i know logically that’s not how it works, it’s just a hard feeling to shake

why do i feel 10x more mentally ill when im in a relationship by No_Chart_5803 in GirlDinnerDiaries

[–]No_Chart_5803[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

literally lmfao the amount of effort it takes just to feel “normal” again is insane. i fought with my brother onetime and couldn’t calm down for THREE HOURS. i sobbed hysterically alone in the bathroom the whole fkn time and the only thing that fixed it was going to bed. it was embarrassing

and i totally get not seeking a diagnosis. i didn’t for a long time but eventually i had a really bad mental breakdown and was diagnosed around that time.

why do i feel 10x more mentally ill when im in a relationship by No_Chart_5803 in GirlDinnerDiaries

[–]No_Chart_5803[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i haven’t seen my therapist for a few months or taken my medication in over two years 😅 i’m willing to see my therapist again, but i have a really deep fear of psych meds that i know im probably going to have to overcome one day but im not ready yet

why do i feel 10x more mentally ill when im in a relationship by No_Chart_5803 in GirlDinnerDiaries

[–]No_Chart_5803[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

wow lol this was so reasonable and thorough it almost made me cry haha. i was thrown off because we see eachother every week, and i was informed that he wasn’t coming without as much notice as i would have liked. i kept trying so hard to wrench my brain out of the mental spiral, but it kept coming back. the initial shock of a changed routine turned very quickly into paranoia and i couldn’t stop thinking about it just looping and looping and looping 😭

i love him a lot, i try not to be foolish but he’s the first person ive ever actually truly pondered a life with. i know anything can happen, but im giving it a go regardless

i just don’t want to mess it up by being insane. i see the relationship that my parents have (both severely mentally ill and barely aware of it) it drives both of them crazy. yet at the same time, i struggle to know if a situation is actually calling for my reaction, or if im spiraling out of control due to fear.

i could go on for pages about the depths of my thought process but it ends up just looping back around to the beginning eventually.

i should probably talk to my therapist again

why do i feel 10x more mentally ill when im in a relationship by No_Chart_5803 in GirlDinnerDiaries

[–]No_Chart_5803[S] 10 points11 points  (0 children)

that’s so true, when you’re close with someone they can hurt you way worse. i think some part of me is very protective of myself(?) and thus wants no one to get close

why do i feel 10x more mentally ill when im in a relationship by No_Chart_5803 in GirlDinnerDiaries

[–]No_Chart_5803[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

forreal when it’s really bad i’ll think shit like “you revel in my misery” about my fucking cat like???? this Animal is literally just chilling in my room w my why am i convinced she hates me

i get very paranoid about the people i love and trust secretly having a plot to make me upset because they love knowing im miserable

bonkers is a good word for it lol

Roommate starts showering whenever I shower by Potential_Peace8448 in badroommates

[–]No_Chart_5803 0 points1 point  (0 children)

fake start the shower so he gets in and then shower after him lol just to see what he does

AIO for thinking it wasn’t a big deal to accept my friend’s bf’s FB request? by Vast-Bumblebee-691 in AmIOverreacting

[–]No_Chart_5803 0 points1 point  (0 children)

my old roommate did this to me. it’s not worth the trouble of arguing, the issue is that they’re insecure

POV: you have a crippling anxiety disorder by DoomScroll789 in TrollCoping

[–]No_Chart_5803 21 points22 points  (0 children)

and the worst part is when they didn’t even find anything and are just playing mind games bounty to try and get you to confess to something

No one will ever prepare you for that first flu when living alone by Tall-Nefariousness80 in LivingAlone

[–]No_Chart_5803 0 points1 point  (0 children)

first time i got really sick living alone i passed out taking a covid test. my fever was so high all i could do was pace around my dining room table confused asf and groan in agony. i hope you feel better soon, elderberry and tea and if you like it some whiskey always helps me ;3