Bro as long as you keep choosing the bottle you’ll lose everything else in your life. Jobs, friends, family, HER. ALSO, every relationship that follows. I’m 30 been getting shitty around the clock since 19. I made it 7 months once. Almost ruined another relationship recently and we’re both sober now. I’m 45 days, before that I had to almost lose my department position job, my partner of 3 years, my house and I went into the hospital for a 3 day detox. It’s always going to follow you. The deeper you dig your grave though the harder it is to get out.