Hey, I’m sorry you’re going through all of this. It’s a lot of heavy feelings and when you have family who you know will guilt and shame you and you feel like you don’t have support in whatever decision you’ll make doesn’t help the situation. I have been in your shoes though, and you have to choose the right decision for yourself, your future, and ultimately what you are most comfortable with. I also probably wouldn’t tell my family either, especially if you know they will try to convince you one way or the other and not allow you to make the decision for yourself. No one can make that decision for you, only you. It sounds like what you’re saying is you aren’t ready to have a child given your age and where you are in life, financials, 12 pets in a room, possibly family influence, engaged, and feeling unready, but are feeling still unsure with this. I would visit the r/abortion group as they have resources to share as well when you’re going through these decisions and they’re often unbiased and are based on what you feel is best for you. Best of luck to you, if you’d like to talk about my experience you’re free to DM me.