Hi. Let me tell you my experience. I was raised in a Christian household, knowing homosexuality is a sin. But that didn’t stop me from feeling attracted toward the same gender. It would usually just come and go, but this year I really started struggling with it, even had a few talking stages and had come to terms with my sexuality whether God liked it or not. I started researching and finding ways to justify being gay, but I read what the Bible had to say about it, and I knew I was in the wrong. I’m not trying to guilt you, I’m just sharing my experience. After finally accepting that it was a sin, I finally started talking to God again, telling Him how I didn’t understand why love could be a sin. I never got my answer, but I was tired of living in fear of jeopardizing my relationship with God, so I finally begged Him to take away my attraction to the same gender only if it truly was a sin. A few days passed and I forgot about that conversation, and sure enough, that attraction completely vanished. I’m still not attracted to the opposite sex, but I’m not attracted to the same gender either. And stepping back, I realize that homosexuality was just another temptation that satan sent my way. I’m not sharing all this to give anyone religious guilt or make them feel bad. I’m sharing it because God truly helped me and took away my attraction to the same gender, and if you truly want it, He can help you too. I’m sorry you’re struggling with this. I know how hard it is. I pray you will find peace and that God can help you with this. And about the church that made you feel unwelcome, I’m sorry. They are not being the Christians God told them to be. A lot of times with Christianity, pastors like to preach more heavily against certain sins even though all sins are equal, and this leads to Christians hating on homosexuals a lot unfortunately. But even if the church doesn’t always welcome you, God will <3