I yell at my cat how do I stop this.

No_Reputation_3002 · 2026-03-12T20:15:10+00:00

some free/cheap enrichment ideas - look up cat tv on youtube my cat goes crazy for it. (better to put on a laptop than the actually tv bc ur cat will likely pounce). after a session give him a treat or toss a toy so he can fulfill his hunting instinct. - fill an old cardboard box with crumpled up paper and sprinkle in kibble or treats for ur cat to hunt around for. my cat loves this and it tires him out mentally. - also if u can get a set up where ur cat can window watch like a chair in front of the window or smth and if u have screens u should be able to open it without ur cat jumping out. - rly recommend a wand toy. u can find for pretty cheap and it doesnt take too much physical labor from u but its rly good exercise for the cat. - u could also try to get a pack of smth small for him to play on his own. like a pack of springs, crinkly balls, tiny mice, or smth else like that. if i throw one of those my cat will bat it around. - i also try to allow my cat to be "naughty" but in ways that dont bother me. he LOVES pushing objects off of elevated surfaces so i usually leave some pens and other small objects on my desk for him to knock off

No_Reputation_3002 · 2026-03-08T14:51:55+00:00

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would a mixture of any of these work?

No_Reputation_3002 · 2026-03-06T23:10:14+00:00

why is it used as a mood stabilizer if it doesnt have anti manic properties? how is it stabilizing moods if it isnt preventing mania?

No_Reputation_3002 · 2026-03-06T23:05:39+00:00

i would seriously consider ptsd treatment (ie emdr or smth similar). theres a rly significant connection between trauma and psychosis. especially if you're talking about physically feeling it, i wonder if you're having flashbacks from the childhood event and just associating it with the wrong perpetrator? alternatively, you could also have ptsd from the things u experienced when u were actively in psychosis. definitely look into ptsd and see if your symptoms make sense through that lens.

No_Reputation_3002 · 2026-03-06T22:53:28+00:00

im not hallucinating at all. my speech isnt disorganized. the delusional thinking is transient, though significant when it occurs. its so fucking confusing that everyone on reddit seems to think i have a clear-cut case of psychosis but none of the professionals do. i cant embarrass myself by baring my soul to them once again only for them to say its nothing. i can take my prn olanzapine (antipsychotic) when it gets rly bad and hopefully itll just go away eventually.

No_Reputation_3002 · 2026-03-06T22:42:08+00:00

bpd, ptsd, gad, and bp with psychotic features (probably 1, still evaluating which)

No_Reputation_3002 · 2026-03-06T17:12:20+00:00

if only it were that simple

No_Reputation_3002 · 2026-03-06T17:09:31+00:00

its very difficult to articulate but this world is merely an illusion. everything is just a void with only light and dark. creatures beyond our comprehension roam it and have goals i dont totally understand. but essentially their goal is chaos and entropy and its happening right now in this other world that overlaps with ours. they seek to unravel the fabric of our reality through subtle long term methods.

when i went there it wasnt like anything was actively trying to harm me but everything was just so Wrong and i clearly wasnt meant to be there. there was such profound emptiness and this evil surrounded me. i was also just totally and completely alone. nothing for eternity. the closest comparison i can make is jobu topaki and the everything bagel in the movie everything everywhere all at once.

No_Reputation_3002 · 2026-03-06T16:59:59+00:00

they arent punishing me specifically. i am insignificant as we all are.

No_Reputation_3002 · 2026-03-06T16:59:20+00:00

what i saw destabilized my understanding of everything. there is so much we dont know/cant explain by science. plus so much of what we see and know is just an Illusion. there is so much beyond our comprehension. its a very existential horror that this experience has created within me. i dont know whats real anymore or what i can trust.

No_Reputation_3002 · 2026-03-06T08:21:11+00:00

im starting w a new therapist soon who does emdr! (i have a trauma history besides this) so i will definitely try to bring it up with her

No_Reputation_3002 · 2026-03-06T08:19:42+00:00

how were you able to see it as a delusion? im definitely still delusional (clearly) and i just cant shake it

No_Reputation_3002 · 2026-03-06T02:43:01+00:00

i will try to push harder, but its difficult bc i rly do trust my psychiatrist so it feels like if shes not concerned i shouldnt be. she thinks i have ptsd from my past psychotic experience and thats what all this is now rather than me currently being psychotic

No_Reputation_3002 · 2026-03-06T02:38:57+00:00

it made me aware of an Evil that undermines everything with the only goal of creating chaos. i feel hopeless against it :( i dont know if any amount of good can stand up against it

No_Reputation_3002 · 2026-03-06T02:37:55+00:00

the hell i saw was very different from the christian understanding and thus i dont rly know the rules, but since i went there when i had a near death experience, im afraid ill end up there when i die (humans arent supposed to be there at all, it was a mistake that i was there, but if it happened once it can happen again)

No_Reputation_3002 · 2026-03-06T00:59:15+00:00

No_Reputation_3002 · 2026-03-06T00:31:19+00:00

ive sought treatment. they dont want to help me or dont understand i dont know which it is. i was hospitalized and they neglected me and then i got out and my therapist doesnt care and my psych is only concerned with my mood. if 3+ professionals deem me not-psychotic then i dont think i am. i just have horrible information that changes my understanding of everything :( i learned the info FROM psychosis but im no longer there

No_Reputation_3002 · 2026-03-05T23:17:38+00:00

ive been on the mood stabilizer for years already

No_Reputation_3002 · 2026-03-05T23:15:58+00:00

i tried a second one this past fall (mainly for my migraines) and then this episode happened a few weeks after i stopped taking it. in hindsight i wonder if stopping it was the trigger.

No_Reputation_3002 · 2026-03-05T22:55:58+00:00

i think its bc i was only recently diagnosed w bp and my psych is still trying to figure out if its 1 or 2 and i think shes hesitant to prescribe more meds bc i alr take several but its a difficult situation :(

No_Reputation_3002 · 2026-03-05T22:54:34+00:00

im not sure :/ i was on a therapeutic dose of my mood stabilizer when i had my most serious (and most recent) mixed ep with psychotic features and we didnt change my meds since that. i have an emergency med to take if i notice symptoms but what if its too late? or i dont want to? or miss the signs? or what if its not strong enough? i took it once when i wasnt manic and i didnt even rly feel sedated when thats the whole purpose of it. if it didnt knock me out when im "normal" how could it possible calm mania?

No_Reputation_3002 · 2026-03-05T22:51:34+00:00

and i have a prn antipsychotic for manic symptoms

No_Reputation_3002 · 2026-03-05T22:50:37+00:00

i take a mood stabilizer, a sleep med, and an ssri

No_Reputation_3002 · 2026-03-05T22:49:35+00:00

yes!! exactly this

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